Dreezy
He never called me....
- a week ago -
I woke up and saw no one next to me.
I looked in the bathroom and saw nothing.
I went out to the living room and only saw Jahlil lying on the couch and Chris on the patio smoking.
I just got played.....
I didn't really know how to comprehend it until I tried to call him and it went straight to voicemail.
I texted receiving no replies.
I tried for 3 days before I gave up.
If he doesn't want me I'm not going to pressure him. I just lessened my lesson not to fuck with him anymore.
- present day -
I sat in a chair while Juicy did my hair again.
She and Shauna knew what happened after I vented to them that first day and since we haven't talked about it.
I know she really wanted to say something, but was only holding her tongue in respect for my feelings. She didn't want me to be hurt and sobbing over him anymore.
She was flat ironing my hair, giving it an extra ooomff, while I sat scrolling through Instagram.
"Sooo...." Juicy said while picking up a new section to flat iron "are you still going to the pool party tomorrow?" She asked me.
"No" I said with assurance.
"What!? Why?" I could feel her looking at me.
If he wanted to see me he would've called me back or answered my text or came over, but he hasn't so why go somewhere where I'm clearly not wanted" I said bluntly while I kept scrolling on IG.
She flat ironed one last piece "oh you're going to that party. I don't care what you want. You're gonna show him what he's missin'. Let him know you ain't sittin' around waiting on him.
"But I was" I looked up at her.
"That's not the point, you're not going to let him control you. You're a grown ass woman you were fine before him and you'll be fine after." She started doing my edges.
"I don't know. I don't want to deal with him. He can ball and chill and I'll do the exact same thing."
"C'mon who gives a damn. I love Clare I really do, but what he did to you was fucked up and he's gonna realize that cuz' you're going to that damn party." She stood back and looked at the work she did on my hair.
I started thinking. She was right. I'm not gonna sit around moping and trying to spare someone else's feelings who didn't have the decency to do the same for me.
"Okay" I stood up and looked in the mirror.
I took a picture and posted it
