Tomboy Love Book 4: Don't Go Chasing Waterfalls

Workaholic

Craig’s POV: it was Sunday. I was too tired from work to get up for church. Zakia woke me up when I realized tamara was still asleep, she was up until 5 am last night working on her book, so I took zakia out of the room and left mara to sleep while I made Tayshaun & Jason take Zakia to church and told them their momma needed rest. After they all had left I closed our bedroom door before getting back into bed with tamara as she crawled closer to me, hugging my chest at first I thought she was awake but she was still fast asleep.

So I laid there stroking her hair and letting her sleep, she always lets me sleep when I have a hard day its time I do it back. So I’m gonna just let her sleep as I watched, I don’t think anyone understands how much I really love this woman, she is literally my everything and without her I have no idea where I would be, she’s given me more than I could ever want; Love, A family, Friends and most of all happiness, I will be honest with you it would be more perfect if Tayshaun was mine but no family is pefect and I wouldn’t ever trade him in for a thing. I just love Tamara.

She is the glue that holds us all together her heart is so true and pure all she ever does is care for everyone I mean look at Jason. She could have just let the court place him in foster care but instead for fought to have custody of Jason for a whole year and a half and he’s been living with us ever since but I know she loves Jason as her own and she doesn’t treat him any different then Kia and Tay. And … my babygirl Zakia! I can’t thank my wife Tamara for bringing my beautiful daughter into this world, she is the spitting image of her gorgeous mother but is like me in every way.

I just love my family, and I wish I could spend more time with them, but work has me swamped right now, my record company want me to do a comeback song because they think it would make a ot more new young acts want to work with us but the thing is they want me to write a song about getting girls or a really catchy pop song but to be honest I don’t feel comfortable doing that I mean I got a family now and I don’t think tamara would like the fact i have I’m in a music video surrounded by young girls dancing all over me.

They’ve told me I have a few weeks to think about it before we make a final decision, I wanna talk to tamara about it but its like when she’s awake I’m either at work or sleeping and when I’m awake she’s either sleeping over working plus she is always taking care of the kids and it makes me bad because all I seem to do is work and the last thing I want is for my children to feel neglected because there father always works. I refuse to be that guy.

I was thinking about so much and lost in my thoughts to realize Tamara had woken up and she was just staring at me with a smile on her face before jumping up remembering church. I had told her that I made Tayshaun and Jason take Zakia and she was upset that she missed church but soon laid back down and we snuggled in bed. I would bring up the whole come back thing now but it had been so long where me and Tamara had a nice alone lazy day as you can guess cant do that much with the kids plus we had a good 2 and a half hours left before the kids got back so I was going to enjoy it.

She was hugging my chest with a grip which I knew meant how much she missed me and that she didn’t want to let go, it only broke my heart knowing I have been away from her so long that she is just grateful to be in my presence. And she didn’t even have to mutter the words ‘I miss you’ because I knew she did and the way she slowly rested her head at the crook of my neck and drew invisible circles on my bare chest with her finger as she said “I love you Craig” it felt as if I had just been slapped in the face with guilt.

It hurt so much being away from her, I felt like quitting my job but before I do that I would have to find another but who knows how long that would take? I mean that would mean I spend MORE time away from them than I am now and I don’t wanna do that. I’m so stuck on what to do and I wanna talk to her about it but I don’t wanna ruin his moment we are having now. I don’t want it to turn into an agurement where we are on each side of the room screaming at each toher as she starts crying and the kids come home to hear it.

I don’t want that! I know I have to tell her but its not the right time. I needed to stop thinking about this now! So I turned all my attention to Tamara and we started talking which soon turned into play fighting then play fighting turned into making out and before it could get even better than that we heard the key go through the door and the kids came back. It wasn’t even 5 mintues after they came in the house before we heard fee and Zakia ran in jumping in the bed towards her momma. She had a picture in her hand and she was telling us what she did at church.

Soon after Tayshaun came in screaming “DOG PILE” before jumping on the bed too and Jason behind. I swear these boys are still 5 years old but they keep things fun. We all laughed, it’s a good thing me and Tamara got that XL Kingside bed because these children always in this bed hahaha, we were still talking about church when Tayshaun asked momma “Can we watch a movie?” I’m guessing he said it because I’m home and after he said it he moved in the bed next to me giving me a hug, I love my son, I love both my sons.

Tamara said sure before heading downstairs with Zakia to get snacks as me Jason and Tayshaun were talking about school and girls, then even they were telling me how they missed talking to me like this and even how they love me which as you can imagine isn’t making me feel any better. Soon after tamara and Zakia came back with drinks, Snacks and popcorn and we all watched ‘This Christmas’ as a family and it felt good that we were all sending more quality time together. All of us squashed together snuggled in the bed laughing as a family :)

Johnson Family >>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>> 

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