chapter 23

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       you can listen to the music if you want I just like the song so yeah
  **WESDAY**
  
         Tomorrow the care worker is coming to check the place tomrrow is also my brithday today.I don't want a party or anything like that Josh is the only one that knows I told him not to tell or do anything about it.I got ready and put on

      I got a call from Logan(L-logan Me-Beth)L-I am sending you to the boys house then when they are done go to the my houseMe-Okay but why?L-You will find out later**END OF CONVO**"Do you guys want to stay home or come with me?"I asked they all ...

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      I got a call from Logan
(L-logan Me-Beth)
L-I am sending you to the boys house then when they are done go to the my house
Me-Okay but why?
L-You will find out later
**END OF CONVO**
"Do you guys want to stay home or come with me?"I asked they all wanted to stay.I walked inside the boys house."Hey"I said to them "So today you are going to make a song and record it so we are going to go to Alissa's house"Jonnah said."I can't sing"I said "someone told me you can rap"Zach said."I can't even speak good how am I good at raping?"I asked.Everyone shuggred their shoulders.

         "ALISSA"I yelled "BETH"she yelled and we ran and hugged like in the movies."So are you ready you record?"she asked "nope"we laughed."Okay if I am going to do this no one in the room"I said everyone nodded."Can I stay?"Rice and Alissa asked I nodded "how about me?"Daniel asked "nope"I said."Are you going to do the rap you already wrote?"Rice asked I nodded.
**You need to read the lyrics to know the story**
How Could You Leave Us

NF

"How could you leave us so unexpected?
We were waiting, we were waiting
For you but you just left us
We needed you, I needed you

Yo, I don't know what it's like to be addicted to pills
But I do know what it's like to be a witness it kills
Mama told me she love me, I'm thinking this isn't real
I think of you when I get a whiff of that cigarette smell, yeah
Welcome to the bottom of hell
They say pain is a prison, let me out of my cell
You say you proud of me, but you don't know me that well
Sit in my room, tears running down my face and I yell
Into my pillowcases, you say you coming to get us
Then call 'em a minute later just to tell us you not, I'm humiliated
I'm in a room with a parent that I don't barely know
Some lady in the corner watching us, while she taking notes
I don't get it mom, don't you want to watch your babies grow?
I guess that pills are more important, all you have to say is no
But you won't do it will you? You gon' keep popping 'til those pills kill you
I know you gone but I can still feel you

Why would you leave us? Why would you leave us here?
How could you leave us here?
How would you leave us? Why would you leave us?
Oh, Hey

I got this picture in my room and it kills me
But I don't need a picture of my mom, I need the real thing
Now a relationship is something we won't ever have
Why do I feel like I lost something that I never had?
You shoulda been there when I graduated
Told me you love me and congratulations
Instead you left us at the window waiting
Where you at mom? We're too young to understand where you at huh?
Yeah, I know those drugs got you held captive
I can see it in your eyes, they got your mind captured
Some say it's fun to get the high but I am not laughing
What you don't realise and what you not grasping
That I was nothing but a kid who couldn't understand
I ain't gon' say that I forgive you cause it hasn't happened
I thought that maybe I feel better as time passes
If you really cared for me, then where you at then?

Why would you leave us? Why would you leave us?
How could you leave us here?
How would you leave us? Why would you leave us?
Hey

Our last conversation, you and I sat in the living room
Talking 'bout my music and I brought you something to listen to
You started crying, telling me this isn't you
Couple weeks later, guess you were singing a different tune
You took them pills for the last time, didn't you?
They took you from us once, guess they came back to finish you
Crying my eyes out in the studio is difficult
Music is the only place that I can go to speak to you
It took everything inside of me to not scream at your funeral
Sitting in my chair, that person talking was pitiful
I wish you were here mama but every time I picture you
All I feel is pain, I hate the way I remember you
They found you on the floor, I could tell that you felt hollow
Gave everything you had plus your life to them pill bottles
You gave everything you had plus your life to them pill bottles
Don't know if you hear me or not, but if you still watching why

Why would you leave us? Why would you leave us?
How could you leave us here?
How would you leave us? Why would you leave us?
Hey"

After I was done I was crying and Alissa and Rice were hugging me they know the whole story about my life."It is okay we can just her grave today after you release the song"Alissa suggested.I nodded "I am going to go get some ice cream"she said.Rice was still hugging me then he kissed my forehead he is like a brother to me.

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