In July his church went to the lake for a youth night. I went for the day to spend with them. That day it seemed like our relationship changed. After that day it seemed like our relationship went all down hill. The longer the day went the more me fought. We fought over everything. Most of it was petty stuff but at the time I didn't realize how stupid it was. On the way home when it was just us, we talked it all out and made up. But after that day our relationship changed and not for the good.
Tryouts came around and I became very jealous. Girls started to notice him more and hit on him more for how muscular he was from working on the farm. For tryouts all the boys had on were the see through practice jerseys. I became furious because the time they were outside was the same time the girls that were noticing him were running the mile for volleyball. We fought for a while about it. Days upon days about it. I had a feeling like he was going to leave me for those girls, eventually I was right.
Exactly 1 year from the day we met we broke up. We had been fighting for weeks on end about absolutely nothing. We were at the fair and he ignored me. Mom walked up to him and told him we were going to talk whether we liked it or not. He wanted me to go to him so he could break up with me in front of all his family. Mom of course said no and we went to a bench by our selves. We talked a good 20 minutes before he finally said it was over. I sat there and cried for about 10 minutes before he said, "I'm sorry," and walked away. After sitting there for another 20 minutes crying I finally got up and went looking for my family. The knew we were going to break up before I knew. As we walked around the fair I tried to forget what had happened. It didn't work to well because we passed by him every 5 minutes. Eventually my parents got sick of us passing each other so we left. While we were driving home I get a text from him saying, "I'm sorry this had to happen. I just felt like we needed a break, but we can still talk. I will text you like normal. Just please understand where I am coming from." I sat there and started crying some more. I eventually texted back saying, "Yeah we can be friends and talk like friend. But it will take a while to forgive you because couples who want to be together will work through it all. Even in the hard times." I ended up crying myself to sleep before he could say anything.
The next day I got up later than normal. I could physically feel my heart being ripped out of my chest and being ripped apart. I had to fight myself to not text him first. I gave my mom my phone to keep me from texting him first. After about an hour of being awake he texted me. Our conversations were like normal, but you could tell there was sadness in both people. At the end of the day before going to bed I texted him saying, "It's been a rough day so I'm going to bed. I love you." He then replied back saying, "Oh okay :( n I know you do. Goodnight." I then cried myself to sleep again.
The next morning I woke up to a giant text from him. It said, "I know your asleep but I need to get this off my chest. I know I have upset you and I'm sorry. I've screwed up big time. I never wanted to hurt you. I still love you but I'm afraid you won't believe me when I say it so I don't. Well goodnight, sweet dreams." I just sat there. I felt like crying but my eyes were so red and burning that I physically couldn't. I waited for him to text me. It was about noon before he finally texted me to ask if I got his text. I told him yes and all he said was okay. He then asked me how I am and I told him I could be better. He just kept saying, "I'm sorry." We eventually stopped talking for a while so he could help pack up everything since it was the last day of the fair. At about 9 that night he finally texted back saying, "Hey what are u doing?" After I told him I was having family game night he asked if he could call me. When he called I put him on speaker while I sat there and continued playing phase 10 with my family. I could hear the sadness in his voice. I have never heard him this way. Not even when his grandma died. When I asked him what was wrong he said, "us." I said, "What about us?" He said, "I've been doing a lot of thinking the past few days and I need to tell you what my heart is telling me so please listen. I can't live another moment without you! I need you back in my life. I screwed up and I know that now. I love you! Please be my girlfriend again." I sat there with tears in my eyes and before I could say anything my mom said, "It's about freakin time. Y'all were driving me nuts." We all laughed. He said, "So I guess that's a yes?" I replied, "Of course it is babe." He said, "Good. Well I have to go back and finish packing up so I'll talk to you later. Love you." After I hung up the phone I couldn't stop smiling. All of my heart ache was gone in a matter of seconds. Later that night I could not sleep because I was so happy. I felt on top of the world. Nothing could bring me down.
