Am I not Enough?

Chapter 1: Manaka's Past

Shida's P.O.V.

We got to our dorm and the atmosphere is dead serious. It's almost scary, since it's never this way. Risa sits on her bed and I sit on mine, which is parallel to hers.

Risa: Go ahead

S: *inhales, exhales* okay then... so around 2½ years ago I ran into Neru by complete coincidence. You were travelling back then so you didn't get to see her. Anyways, I was so excited back then. We caught up to each other and just hung out. Do you remember that girl I was really into back then?

Risa: Yah, you told me back then that it was your first time falling for someone so hard. You wouldn't shut up about her.

S: ha... ha... yah.. well I told Neru about her as well. She told me that it was such a surprise and she was curious and wanted to see her. Well a week later I got an invitation from the girl to a party. I remember Neru saying she wanted to meet her so I brought her as a plus one.

.... Fast forward a bit to the party and this is the point where all of us have drunk a bit, for our age back then it was a lot. I ended up falling asleep somehow, i remember feeling so off. Anyways I woke up and looked for Neru so I could take her home. I couldn't find her anywhere, I tried asking but no one knew. I looked at every room in the house and I open this one room-

Fuck, its the past why do I feel like tearing up. This is so not cool, Risa must think im dumb right now.

Risa's P.O.V.

Im listening to Manaka's story and the tone of her voice... I've never heard it like this. She can't even make eye contact with me. I've never seen her this way before, she's just always so happy. She's the person that could lift anyone's spirit up. Seeing her like this is just so... crushing. I didn't think that she's been this hurt before. I was beside her all this time, why didn't I know.

She suddenly stopped talking. I could tell that she doesn't want to continue. I feel anger growing inside me. I stood from my bed to sit beside Manaka. I put both my hands on her shoulder and made her face towards me even though she's still looking down, and I tightly hugged her.

Risa: It's okay to cry, you don't even have to continue the story today if you cant. I don't know what she did to you but im here for you. I always was and I always will. I know I do dumb stuff to you but i'll never hurt you like this. I'm your best friend and I'll protect you no matter what.

I felt my should get damp, I guess she's crying huh? Im glad her face is buried on my shoulder right now. I know I cant hide the anger in my face right now. I could feel and see Manaka's back go up and down whenever she tries to catch her breath. Right now, this is the best I can do for her. Manaka's breathing gradually started slowing down. She leans a bit backward, wipes her eyes and lifts her head to meet my eyes. I've also calmed down a bit, so I gave a soft smile to reassure her that im here for her.

Manaka: Thank you... I'm going to keep tell you the story. I feel like I owe it to you since you were also affected by this.

Risa: Huh? What do you mean by that? I mean you also don't owe me anything, take your time and just go in your own pace, okay? If saying everything today is too much than that's fine too.

Manaka's P.O.V

Man, im so lame... Plus when was Risa ever like this, she's usually so tsundere. I guess I have to do my best as well.

S: You'll see later on the story and thank you but I wanna have the courage to say it today.

*big sigh* Okay... so... when I opened the door I see the girl that I liked being pinned down by Neru. I guess at that time they didn't hear me come in cause they made out right then and there. I was stunned and couldn't move from the spot i was in. Something cracked inside of me when I saw the girl I like, sliding her hand up Neru's shirt. I was so heartbroken, I lost all my strength and just fell to the floor. That made a loud sound at least loud enough for them to hear over the party music. Neru looked so mortified, I didn't know what to do. So, I stood up and just ran. Before I could leave the property entirely, Neru caught up to me and grabbed my hand. I just swatted her hand away. I know for sure she was gonna say something but I was so angry at that time that I just slapped her on the face and started running in random directions.  After that, I've never seen Neru up until today.