Life of a girl

Music

Severus thought for a second. "You referred to him as she, " he commented finally.

"Yeah.  I...  I don't like all the change... She's going to cut her hair in a couple weeks. I don't...  I don't know anymore. " She curled up. They were both laying on their sides, looking at each other. 

While Severus's body was straight as he laid, Rose was laying with her knees to her chest. "Ugh. I'm just so tired of all of this.  Everything's happening so quickly,  and all at the same time. But can we talk about something else? "

"Sure.  You pick the topic." Severus said. He wanted to keep discussing what she meant by 'everything',  but if Rose was uncomfortable with it,  he wasn't going to push it.

Rose thought a bit. "I've finished the translating for the next cover.   I can sing it all now." Her eyes brightened. "Do you want to hear it?"

"Of course." He smiled.  "This sounds entertaining.  Let's hear it."

Rose stood up and walked over to her desk,  picking up her laptop and a few sheets of paper. She sat back down on the bed,  opening the laptop and playing some music,  adjusting the volume so it wouldn't be very loud.  Then she got the sheets ready.  "Oh yeah.  Permission to cuss a lot?" She asked.

"Sure. As long as you don't cuss aside from singing, I really don't mind."

"Sweet." She turned on the music and started singing.

" WELCOME TO THE MIND FUCK

Hold on a second ma'am without a care
The clothes you wear don't give a damn.
Sleeping up and down the block
They got you knocked up by a man.
Thinking you're the mother Mary
Pure but very dumb and can't
Kick the dick from out your mouth but do you even understand?

Hold on a moment sir without a heart
What kinda shit you trying to sell
Talking up a simple girl
You picked her cherry very well
Promising the sun and moon
The story that you always tell.
Now you're out the door?!
I hope you cherry pick your way to hell.

"When's it coming?  Can't recall
Oh mirror mirror on the wall"
Sex and bitter cynicism
Laughing watch it start to fall
Picture perfect pandering,  pathetic made you miserable.
Though I shouldn't care
I couldn't wait to finally see them all in hell
(I'll drag them as we crawl)

Ah,  doing it right,
Feeling that high
Taking what's mine
And I feel just fine
You took it all away so now this hero cries in pain.

Holding you tight
Fighting all night
Telling me why
But I can't rewind
The memories I made of you and me wont go away

WELCOME TO THE MIND FUCK!

Covered in cuts from head to toe,
a kinky kinda crazy not enough.
Can you feel it too?
A kind of pain made out of real love
See the needy greedy me we bleed to feed so easily
Idiocracy she breathes we need to teach her everything!

Don't you know its time to go
So hurry up or fall behind
Don't know what they're talking about
Well strap on in enjoy the ride
Can't see what's ahead at all
I guess were gonna travel blind.

Though I shouldn't care at all
I'm just a drop of water in the sea
(And that's a part of life)

Ah,  changing my face
Bearing that pain
Joy that I made and you threw away
the heroine alone and weeping all throughout the night
Doing okay
Talking all day
Repeating that play
But they just won't fade
The memories I made of you and me I couldn't fight

Poker face but the lies you buried deep were found
Run away but there will be blood to go around
Try to hide but the scars will open up again
Didn't like but its gonna hurt you in the end

Take it in stride
Meeting your eyes
Planning all night
Remember those times
Wallowing away in things I know I just can't change

Laughing at jokes
Getting so close
Didn't we know that time goes so slow
The memories are fading
I'll say goodbye to everything
Ah ah
Ah AAAHHH

WELCOME TO THE MIND FUCK
WELCOME TO THE MIND FUCK
MIND FUCK
WELCOME TO THE MIND FUCK
WELCOME TO THE MIND FUCK
THE MIND FUCK

Authors note: In this story,  Rose represents me.  It was only me and my father for a long time,  until his girlfriend pushed herself into my life. Dad and I used to be close.  We never had the kind of father- daughter relationship Severus and Rose have, however. I am 12, as Rose is I'm this story. I'm bisexual,  but unlike Rose (the version of me I wish I could be),  I haven't been able to come out to my family. However,  I do have a girlfriend.  (Boyfriend? I don't even know anymore) Her name is Rachel (Jake) Millhouse. She is the reason that I'm alive now. If it hadn't been for her,  my depression would've driven me to kill myself a few months ago. But unlike most people, Rachel understands me ( mostly because she has the same issue). And hasn't deserted me. I have three amazing friends. Rachel,  Jocelyne, ( my ex girlfriend. We broke up when I realized that my feelings for rach were returned.) and Arianna. 

But back to the story.  Sorry I get distracted easily. Rose is the person I wish I could be.  My alter-ego,  I guess you could say. However,  we have the same song choices and friends.  Here are the major differences between me and Rose.  Rose is on the left and I'm on the right.

Has came out about sexuality--- has not

Parent knows who she is dating and supports it--- my parents don't know and probably wouldn't accept me for who I am

Happy,  bubbly--- haha,  no.  OPPOSITE

Here are things that are the same about us.

Have to pretend we're someone were not

Lack of mothers.  My mother drinks and has never been there for me.  Rose's mother died during childbirth.

Friends

Sexuality

Pet name ( Rosey)

Favorite animal (wolf)

With this,  I must go.  My youtube channel name is Hufflepuff And Proud. It can be found by looking up dramionie: anything is possible.  Its cringey as all hell.  Fair warning (it tastes like goblin piss. Sorry).