audrey's POV
shît shit shit shit.
what have i done?
i'm such a fuck up. when i lose it i can't control myself. now there's a girl dead in my room and Y/N is passed out on my bed with her back covered in blood. she's never going to forgive me.. ever.
i fucked up big time
i've been obsessed with this girl ever since i first saw her and i just wanted her so badly.
i ruined her life and now i've actually hurt her bad.
why am i like this?
no one has ever made me as crazy as Y/N makes me.
i fantasise about her..but not in a harmful way. i would never intentionally hurt her.
i need to make this right. but i don't know where to start.
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i went upstairs and cleaned up the mess in my room, dumping the body in somebody else's trash can.
i went to the store and brought all her favourite foods, i found out what they were by stalking all her social media's. i know it sounds obsessive and weird but, this girl means the world to me, making her happy is my priority.. especially after what i did to her.
i also got some medical stuff to help her back.
when i got back she was still passed out. i carefully cleaned her back, trying not to wake her up. once i bandaged her back i gently wrapped her in a thick, fluffy blanket and picked her up bridal style and gently layed her on the sofa gently. i walked over to the bed to change the bloody sheets.. there was so much blood. i sighed and sat on the edge of the bed and put my head in my hands.
i could feel the tears threatening to escape my eyes, but i managed to hold them back.. for 2 seconds. within the space of 10 seconds i was releasing a river out of both of my eyes.
i didn't like to cry, it makes me look weak and unable to do things. but despite how stupid and fucked up i am, i'm still human.
i heard a shuffling sound and i shot my head over at Y/N.
she had woken up.
i quickly wiped my eyes and got up and approached her and she whimpered and quickly backed away, i could tell she was trying to scream but she had lost her voice.
just the sight of her made my heart shatter.
"i'm so sorry, princess.." i frowned.
your POV
"i'm so sorry, princess.." she frowned..
sorry?
she nearly fucking killed me and she's sorry?
i clenched my jaw and looked away from her, unable to speak as i had lost my voice from screaming and crying too much.
i held the blanket by each side and pulled it over me more, still avoiding her gaze.
"please, Y/N. i owe you my life.. it was never my intention to hurt you.."
her words spiked all of the anger i had it me and gave me the strength somewhat speak.
"oh, so that was all on accident?" i mumbled, my voice weak and wispy.
she was left speechless.
she stared at me for a moment, hoping to find some kind of response which didn't make her sound like a fucking dickhead.
she gave up and sighed in defeat, hiding her face behind her hands before standing to her feet and finishing up the mess that she had made.
my head was pounding, i had lost so much blood. i was starving, dehydrated. i was scared to look in the mirror in fear that my reflection would be the scariest thing i've ever seen.
once she had cleaned up she went upstairs and came back down a little while later with all my favourite food and drink, even a little alcohol. i got up and limped over to the bottle of tequila an snatched it off of the desk and downed around two mouthfuls, i winced slightly as the strong liquid travelled down my throat, it's like i could feel it burning my insides. i looked over at audrey who was staring at me in shock "you might want to slow down" she said softly and i shot my head up "don't tell me what to do" i snapped weakly. she clenched her jaw and i could tell she was trying to hold back. i clenched my fists around the bottle in my hand and stared at her in pure frustration, "please just.. be careful" she sighed and grabbed her jacket she had left in there earlier and walked out.
i leaned back on the bed and sighed, taking occasional sips from the bottle.
