whatever I feel like posting

me venting :p

I'm the friend people come to about most thing. From their crushes, breakups, family problems to just random things and fandom things. That or they don't talk to me at all. They talk to me about their problems and I try to help as much as I can...

But there are times it's too much

Like when one of my friends talks about the person they like a long time after a breakup and how their moving in but they themselves can't.
When I only come on to talk to them because they said I can when j really need to...
But I don't get a word in after I've had to listen to my nana call me an abomination to my face because I'm not straight, her going on about homosexuality being an abomination against god and not caring the way that marks me feel when I'm already breaking down from he stress of school, the need to be good enough and fight depression and anxiotuy just to get anything done because you don't have any motivation left and your collapsing in on yourself because you failed them. Or being compared to a schizophrenic mother that you love but you barely get to see and it struggling just to pay for food and a living place. Being told your messy, lazy and need to work harder try harder on your work and what you do. To exercise because your too heavy and they make sure to remind you of that everyday. Or being told to wear makeup because your a teenager with acne....

No, you shut up and listen because you need them to have that kind of support, because you don't and you know till f//king well how much you would've needed that...

Sorry about saying all that I just needed to talk about it to anyone if anyone even bothers to read this and I know people have it so much worse than me but...I just need to talk sometimes too...