Regrets of permanent touch

It felt like cursed

P .O.V
When my mom was giving birth she died during that process .I felt dad didn't care he went away for years I was told he had left me my grandma which is his mom and she took the best  care of me she sent me to school feed me "laughing" she would give me that hairstyle called twity Bird .
When I was about 14 plus my dad returned home .I was the split image of him , brown eyes , maroon type hair ; short and the brightest smile I've ever seen that was my dad , After  I was introduced all I could do was hug him and said "why did you go " I've always plan and wish on stars that I would see him and when I do I wouldn't forgive him , and that I would turn him away but when it had finally happened I couldn't do what I wanted because he and grandma was the last I have ,

My mother's side of  family didn't care "Tears" My dad said " he didn't mean to hurt me but he had troubles and he would see me " he said " he had to go away soon because he has to work to support the family and he was also the head solider of a specific division and he had to return by next week "

Wondering why he didn't state the division .sigh I  was so over whelmed to see Dad I didn't bother to asked I let it pass.

During the time daddy was home .I enjoyed my time with him until it was time to go he promised he'd return that night we had dinner together grandma had made all our favorite dishes dad asked for excuse for us to leave the table we went out side he gave me a necklace with the first letter of our names and mom's it was CKS c for Chelsea that's my name my mother's name was kadeisha and daddy was Shawn he placed it around my neck with a smile and the hug me i knew it was good bye and time to go then placed his suit case in the back enter the car look at me tears mounted in his eyes and drove off .
 

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