How do u love someone?

Part 2 warning forced lemon

A baby demon in rankings is only about 99 years old and I was turning 100 in a few days meaning I would soon be a teenager. Derek and James on the other hand were way older than me both of them including my sister Annabelle were over 1000 years old.
The twins Thowra and Leah were 101 (only a year older than me I'm very picky about that) and my baby siblings like Emily who is 15 and Edward who is 12.

I wandered into the garden while they started to talk adult matters and I sat in the grass peacefully until the man from earlier disturbed me. 
"Hey little raven" he smirked and sat beside me. I simply growled and payed no mind till him until he started touching my leg. I growled defensively saying I didn't like it and stood up. I was about to leave when he pinned me to a nearby wall and started feeling me up. I squawked in alarm something common in bird demons.

"Awe what a cute sound" he chucked and started to undo my pants. I made more distressed noises and suddenly I felt no one. I turned to see Derek holding him by his throat. "Don't ever touch raven again" he growled and dropped him. the man smirked and held his hand up "idk if I wanna do that she felt so......."
SLICE!
"Ahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh! The man screamed as James had cut off his hand "raven is our little sibling and if u even think about touching raven with ur filthy hand again I'll cut the other off" James warned and picked me off the floor and took me inside.

Another few weeks later after that incident my father hasn't sent anymore potential mates over probably scared James will throw another one of his over protective hissy fits. I was laying in the grassy meadow by  our manor with Derek watching me. When our peace was disrupted by a guest. "Names ash I'm a friend of ur fathers" said a demon male.

He Was another potential mate maybe I shouldn't have spoken too soon about father not sending anymore. Instead of  trying to seduce me he spent some time trying to befriend Derek who seemed on defence mode.
I felt him sit next to me and pick a flower and place it in my hair gently. I raised my eyebrow inquisitively. He seemed a lot older than me, probably even Derek's age maybe more. The fact that I'm an inter sexed demon made me vanurable to people wanted me to breed. I took my jacket off and my feathered wings came out and settled gently behind me.
I was self conscious about my wings thinking I looked to much like a fallen angel with them. "Lovely" ash said stroking one I giggled and ruffled my feathers up "awe so adorable" he said softly i smiled for the first time in weeks after my brothers death.

Derek seemed to back off and we stood to go for a walk. About half way threw the woods we were walking in I felt a harsh tug on my wing. Enough to send me to the floor.  I squawked in surprise landing on my back legs open. I felt someone crawl between them and looked up to see ash. "This isn't funny that kinda hurt" I growled thinking he was playing with me "I'm not playing" he said catching onto my tone.

My eyes widened in fear and I began to squirm around.  I turned hitting him with my left wing and he growled pushing it down with great force. I covered my mouth as I heard a snap. "Oh dear I seem to have broken ur wing" he said as if he didn't care. My wing laid flat at my side blood seeping from the open break at the top.
He spread my legs and I began to claw at him letting out distressed squawks hoping Derek would hear. He slapped me enough to show authority over me.

Demons are  feisty creatures but if an older demon gains authority over u there's little u can do to fight against them especially if it's mating season. He grabbed hold of my throats and bit my shoulder to claim his dominance over me. My body stopped working and numbed itself to his command even though it was lowly and disgusting to think he was gonna put that thing between his legs inside me.

I felt a warm sensation all threw my body and panted. No not now. why me? "Mmm ur maturing raven happy birthday" he chuckled as I felt my transition upon me. My whole body hurt and the contract that was still intact with my master weakened me severely. I felt every bone in my body snap at once and couldn't even make a sound as they all healed again signalling that I was now a teenager and fertile to impregnate.

"You planned this" I growled. He smirked and flipped me but my reflexes kicked in and I bent my arms and legs so I landed on my hands and knees. He chuckled and pulled my pants down. I was gonna be raped and I was powerless to do anything.  If I fought him he would win. My powers were too weak to even try to use to get out of here so I just let my body go limp to the floor.

"Giving up?" He chuckled and pulled me to him. I closed my eyes preparing for the pain. I can't believe I'm letting him put that filthy thing inside me and take my virginity that was only meant for my true mate. I felt him poke around behind me and enter my ass by accident but he didn't notice at least my virginity was safe from this man. 

I felt him move inside me and squawked in pain like a bird demon would. He found this quite amusing and started going harder.