I want so bad to say it.
Just let the words slip off my tongue,
But I can't.
I'm tired of saying it,
Of hearing it be said.
It feels so empty anymore.
You're fucking killing me.
The noose around your neck,
Is wrapped so tightly around mine.
And I don't fucking care.
It's all fucking yours,
And I don't fucking want it back.
I don't want my heart.
I don't want my brain.
I don't want my body.
I don't want my name.
I don't want my breath.
Unless you're the one fucking giving it to me.
You're pain runs more than just skin deep.
It runs more than just through your own body,
Mind,
More than just through your fucking veins.
It runs miles away.
Into my heart,
Into my veins,
It's the most awful pain I have ever felt.
But I don't fucking care.
Because it's from you.
And anything from you is a gift from a god I don't fucking believe in.
So I'll cut a little, and cry a lot.
Not for your pity,
But so that maybe I can understand.
Fully understand.
And Maybe feel more adequate.
In the eyes of the Only God to exist.
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-Kas.
