Heartbreak

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How the fuck you supposed to love me but refuse to fight? Got me laying up at night, all my friends keep tryna tell me "it'll be alright". But it's been this way for a minute and I still find myself in it, or at least wanting to be. Who would've ever thought that you and me weren't meant to be....I mean everyone could see the happiness seeping from your skin, the way you wore that special grin that I had the master key to unlock. But all the sudden things stopped.....there was a hold in my life as we knew it. Couldn't breathe, there was no
maneuvering; I was put between a rock and hard place, or like a wall and a heartbreak trying to keep a poker face but I broke, just like my organ inside. It felt as if I wanted to die but I kept telling myself "this isn't real". And I'm still lucid in this nightmare that you've created, I would've thought that these games were outdated to you but we still sit here blue. I remember that your favorite color is pink and you're a lot like a sphinx with these riddles of why our love affair ended so abruptly. I miss being all lovey dovey, being so happy it made people sick....I guess I should've been a dick and kept you at a distance because maybe the space between us wouldn't feel so empty, and maybe we could've been friends without acting iffy, and maybe we wouldn't be as damaged as we are now...yes this was quick and with no sound, no warning it ended. We didn't even have a chance to make ourselves winded man you bailed...and I wish you just weren't so gifted with leaving imprints because you've marked me up...and I don't know if I have the strength to heal.