The Stronger Battle {Sequel to Cancer?}

Sorry

Emmi POV

"Em? Emmi? Emmi!"

"Wha?" I'm snapped out of my daze by mom's voice.

"I said,  get ready we're going to go see Avia, the doctors have some news. " I nod at her, showing that I understand. She leaves my room and I begin to get myself dressed in a too-big blue tank top and a pair of grey yoga pants. I pull on my worn out Nike's from a year ago and throw on a grey beanie, not worrying about hair. I roll over to my closet and grab my Kavu that I usually bring to the hospital. Slinging it over the back of my chair. I grab my phone and headphones before heading out my door. Daxton runs up to me smiling.

"What's up buddy?" I chuckle, reaching to ruffle his blonde mane.

"Mommy gave me M&ms™!" He grins hugely and holds up a pack of peanut m&ms™.

"No fair! I want m&ms™!" I reply, feigning sadness.  He grabs one and pushes it into my mouth and I take it, watching him laugh at me. I stick out my tounge at him and go to tickle him.

"What's happening over here?!" Dad yells, running into the room and scooping Daxton into his arms. His vlog camera strapped awkwardly to his head.

He sets Daxton down and takes his camera off his head. "So, what're we doin today Loofus McGoofus? "

"We're going to go see Avia,  because the doctors have some news!" I provide.

"Yep Buttercup, let's hope it's good huh?" I nod my head as he pushes the camera towards my face. He turns it off before kissing me on the forehead and rounding up Gavin and Brock. I roll towards the door and make my way out to the car. Gavin rushes over to help me in and I mutter my thanks. He folds up my chair and puts it in the trunk before hopping in to sit next to me. Everyone else loads in as I stare straight ahead.

"Hey, Emmi! Where'd your smile go?" Dad asks pushing the camera into my face. I  don't answer but shoot a small smile towards him.  "C'mon that's not a real smile. Why aren't you smiling?" He pushes the camera further towards me and I push it away.

"Why do you think I'm not smiling? Your daughter is in the hospital!! My sister might die and you want me to smile? Avia might not make it! I don't want to smile dad, no-one wants to smile! Leave me alone and don't vlog this!!!" I scream at him, tears streaming down my face. Gavin places his hand on my shaking shoulder and I shrug him off, still sobbing. My tears quiet down and we finally pull into the hospital parking lot.  As soon as we arrive I grab my crutches and get out of the car. Gavin goes after me and retrieves my wheelchair. I glare at him before seeing the sadness in his eyes and I change my glare to a small sad smile.  He helps me into my chair and I mumble "sorry, Gav."

"It's okay,  I understand what you mean about not wanting to smile. I don't really want to either. I might lose two sisters. I can't deal with that, just plastering a smile on my face. But Emm, I love you sis. "

"I love you too bro. "I let him push my chair into the hospital as we go to see Avia. When we enter her room she's just sitting there with a blank expression on her face. Staring up at the ceiling. She's wearing a cannula and since she'll be here for a while, she's wearing her own clothes. A graphic tee and galaxy leggings.  A black shiny scarf is wrapped around her head. Her eyes are glassy and unfocused and I can see dried tear tracks on her cheeks. Immediately I feel guilty. She might not get better and it's my fault. She might not want to get better and that's my doing. I really hurt her that night. And now she's on her death bed. I didn't treat her right and I hate myself for it. I hate myself for doing this to her. The rest of our family enters the room and I'm broken out of my thoughts. We all sit around her, everyone cautious about it.

Finally she looks around and notices us all. Her eyes land on me and I can feel the rock in the back of my throat and the sting in my eyes as tears begin to fall silently. I feel so small and everything else around me feels like its towering overhead and I'm overwhelmed and tears are falling faster as we just sit and we just stare at each other. I can see new tears form on her sheet white face and she lifts her arm to reach out to me.

"Emmi. " she cries out in an almost strangled tone and it doesn't even sound like her anymore. At this point I can't see anything because of how hard I'm sobbing. I  reach my hand out to her and we hold each other's hands.

"I'm so sorry," I say so quietly I can't even hear myself . "I'm so so sorry!" I cry as my grip on her tightens.

"s'okay " she replies before closing her eyes and falling asleep. I look around at the rest of my family and they just stare back in shock. I turn my attention back to Avia and cry with my head against the mattress. She forgives me. I think about our exchange and cry harder. She forgives me. Relief floods my system and I don't even notice when Grace walks in.

Soooo, now do you hate me? Sorry, you still don't know what's going on with Avia. Wow, I'm cruel... Sorry not sorry?

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