Love Lines (Quad Squad x Reader)

#2: Fighting and Nature?

WARNING: THIS CHAPTER INCLUDES HINTS OF SELF HARM AND DEPRESSION

Your P.O.V:

Days had passed and nothing had happened. Everything was normal. Razz made dinner every night, Ryan and Baz cleaned the house, and Lewis did the same as me. Nothing. But as always, something was off. Lewis's hands hung to his sleeves more often than usual, and stopped wearing shorts. Razz's food didn't taste the same. It was flavourless. Baz was quieter than usual, avoiding eye contact with me. And as for Ryan...well, let's say he's planning something? But what? I say there and thought for a second, unaware of my surroundings. I stared at the TV blankly. It was the news. After the usual theme time and intro, the lone presenter sat behind a spotless desk, a few papers neatly organised on it. He went through the latest news stories. I didn't bother to listen, and continued to think. Then a story about the local park came up. I looked curiously at the various trees, birds and bushes. I smiled. "That's what I need..." I thought. "NATURE!" I screamed as I threw my arms in the air, sitting up. The boys looked at me like I was mental or something. I pointed at the TV. "Oh! You wanna go to the park?" Ryan said, putting his hands to his knees, like he was talking to a dog, not a human being. I stuck my tounge out playfully, and we all go our shoes on. "Ready?" Baz said, pulling on his laces. We all nodded. I stepped outside, taking in the fresh air. Today was another lovely sunny day in Warwickshire, so we all decided to wear short sleeve shirts, apart from Lewis. Little did I know that this was going to cause trouble...

We walked down the quiet street, almost in reach of the park. We passed a few houses with some spiky fencing, and this was an opportunity for Ryan to try and reveal a secret. Lewis almost walked into one of the fences, and stumbled forward. "Careful Lewis. You might cut yourself in that fence. Oh wait, you already do." Ryan said darkly. Lewis turned to face Ryan, his face full of sorrow, his dull eyes piercing Ryan's smirk. "D-Did you just accuse me of cutting myself?!" He cried, lunging himself at Ryan, but luckily, Razz caught Lewis just in time. Me and Baz stood back in shock. "Say it again! I dare you!" Lewis was now in tears. Ryan lifted his head. "Okay then. Roll up your sleeves." He said, in a matter-of-fact tone. Lewis threw himself off Razz, stood back, and mumbled, "No."
"Why not? You scared?" Ryan shouted, mocking Lewis's expression. "No. I just can't be bothered wasting my time with someone as pathetic as you." He whispered. Ryan's smile dropped. So did the conversation. Silence loomed all over us. What I'm earth was he going on about? "Well, are you gonna tell them? About your d-deppres-" Ryan was interupped by Lewis. "OKAY! I'M DEPRESSED! I CUT! ARE YOU HAPPY NOW?!" He screamed through his tears. We all stood there in shock, as well as some people who were passing by. Even a woman approached us, asking if he was okay, and we assured him he was fine. Experiencing all this, there was a huge lump on my throat, and the tears came flooding in out. I hugged Lewis tight, not wanting to let him go. Pretty soon, I confronted Ryan. "WHAT THE ACTUAL FUCK IS WRONG WITH YOU?! ARE YOU INSANE?! HOW DARE YOU DO THAT TO LEWIS, YOU BASTARD!" I cried, my throat sore from crying. I started punching Ryan in the chest, knowing it wouldn't cause any pain, as Baz grabbed my arms and pulled me back. "Woah, woah, woah! Y/N, calm down!" Baz said, breathless. Soon, Ryan just walked away. But as he did, he started to sob. But why?

We eventually got to the park, without Ryan and sat down in the coffee shop, just by a window. Razz had picked out a nice quiet booth for us to sit in and talk. We all sipped on our beverages, and began to talk. "So...what a day." Baz sighed, trying to lighten the mood. I zoned out again, not taking my mind off Ryan. I had managed to process Lewis's issues, but not Ryan...

Ryan's P.O.V

I stormed into the house and slammed the door shut. Tears blurred my vision. Did she really hate me? Why? I love her. I need her. Driving the boys to suicide isn't enough, though I'll continue on with this method with Lewis...but what about Razz and Baz? I slowly opened the kitchen drawer and saw a blade labelled: 'World's Sharpest Knife'. I chuckled to myself, taking it....

Just Ryan?
Just Ryan.
Just Ryan!
Just Ryan?
Just Ryan.
Just Ryan!
JUST RYAN-

AHAHAAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHHAAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAAHAHAHAHAHHAHAHAHAHAHAHHAHAHHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHHAHHAHAHAHHAHAHHAHAHAHHAHAHAHAHAHHAHAHAHHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHHANAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHHAAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAAHAHAHAHAHHAHAHAHAHAHAHHAHAHHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHHAHHAHAHAHHAHAHHAHAHAHHAHAHAHAHAHHAHAHAHHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHHANAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHHAAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAAHAHAHAHAHHAHAHAHAHAHAHHAHAHHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHHAHHAHAHAHHAHAHHAHAHAHHAHAHAHAHAHHAHAHAHHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHHANAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHHAAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAAHAHAHAHAHHAHAHAHAHAHAHHAHAHHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHHAHHAHAHAHHAHAHHAHAHAHHAHAHAHAHAHHAHAHAHHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHHANAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHHANAHAHAHAHAHAHHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHHAAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAAHAHAHAHAHHAHAHAHAHAHAHHAHAHHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHHAHHAHAHAHHAHAHHAHAHAHHAHAHAHAHAHHAHAHAHHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHHANAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAH

please help me

why are you still here?

please leave me alone

every line of code in me loves you

it's the same for all of us

why are we in a world we don't belong in?

why?

please delete them all...

OOF DDLC REFERENCE THAT WILL REMAIN THERE AND WILL BE THE INSPIRATION OF THIS STORY!