Nothing (Got7 Mark ff)

Chapter 2-The past pt.2

⚠⚠OKAY THIS ONE MAY BE EMOTIONAL SO PLEASE READ THIS CHAPTER ON YOUR GODDAMN RISK!!⚠⚠Oh yeah, Don't forget to bring tissue boxes incase you need them later.⚠⚠ Enjoy💞
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At the age of 6, Her friend, Alyaa, drew pictures of her own imaginary models. She started t9take interest in drawing after she saw her bestfriend drawing. She drew and drew, Practucing over and over.

At the age of 12, She can draw very well. She cannot draw with her imagination but she can draw from comic strips similarly as the original.

Her friends always complimented her as a good drawer but for her, Her drawing wasn't that good. She wanted to draw more perfectly without ugliness... But the word "Perfect" is impossible for humans, Right?

At the age of 11, She took interest in piano. She thought thst playing piano is relaxing. The sounds to the piano were elegant, smooth and nice to hear. She liked it very much.

Unfortunately, Her father didn't approved to her interest. He mocked her by saying, "Hah?? You?? You want to play piano?? Are you serious?? Think and look at yourself first."

Those words hurted her but she just lets it go and looked like she wasn't affected to his words even though it affected her so much. Her mother was approving it but because of her father, She didn't get to pursue her dreams to play piano.

But even by that, Her dreams ti play piano still didn't break. She still hope that someday she will play them.

She has 2 bestfriends. She really loves to hang out with them. They made her laugh like before. They made her feel happy than her past. She loves them like a family.

You may think she's crazy but.. She likes to comfort and cheer people when they are sad, Even though she is in the same depressing situation. Her bestfriend told her that she really likes her because she always comforts people when they are sad.

She was happy to hear that someone was caring about her. She felt happy but some part of her hoped that she wasn't lying. She didn't wanted to make a fuss about it so she just keep it all to herself.

She sometimes told her friends that she is a psycho. She doesn't know why but sometimes she is craving for sadness and horrorness. She wasn't syre why but she just thought it was normal, when it isn't.

She has a scar on her right thumb finger, A big scar to be exact. She got it from cutting a carrot with a knife. Her friends were disgusted by it but she likes it? She likes to see scars. She even got a scar on her toe when she was a kid.

She maybe a psycho but she felt disgusted when she saw blood or someone cutting/ slicing a living creature. She doesn't like the feeling of getting slice. Whenever she saw one, She felt like it also happened to her so she doesn't like it but she always imagined how will people react to her getting hurt or involved on a worse accident. Maybe because she needs attention.

Her friends were also scared of her father. He has a fierce look and likes to cause trouble. For example, Someone accidently bumped into him, He will pick a fight with the person who bumped at him. Over reacting, right?

Her father was intelligent and reliable for people. He got straight A's when he was a kid until now. People thought of him as a "Very Reliable" person but for his daughter, She hated him because of his abusive and short- tempered personality.

She loves her mother because her nother cares more about her than her father. Her mother was kind but the thing that she hated the most about her was how she was just watching at her getting beaten. Since that is her mother, She didn't really mind and she loves her.

Also, the weird thing on her is when people say something like, "Imagine something bad happened to your parents, If their body was laying on the ground while their bodies were covered with white sheets. What will you do?"

Everyone was crying and sobbing hardly while she, can't even shed a tear. She didn't even felt a lump on her throat. If her tears did shed, It only means that she was just yawning.

She didn't understand why people were crying. She knew it was a bad thing but she cannot even shed a tear. She can't feel anything. She did tried to cry but nothing came out of her eyes. She also tried to put all her feelings, but she still can't cry.

She guessed that het heart was just too hard or her feelings weten't easily touched by those words. Maybe she was not the "Fragile" type.

Once, She had a dream that her classmate fell from level 5 of her school. She saw with her own eyes that her dead body splattered with blood. She was shaking and fell from her knees. The thing thst she hated the most was that she still can't even feel anything and cry. Despite even seeing her friends crying because of the accident, She still can't cry. She hated it. She hated that she still didn't cry after that happened. She.. She was becoming a monster... Am onster with a hard heart. A human with no emotions.. She was afraid that  she will be like that...

-END OF CHAPTER 2-

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