Depressed, Stressed and Boy Band Obsessed - Diary of my Life

Day 1 ~ The Shortest Day of the Year.

This is the story of my life,  Depressed, Stressed and Obesessed with an idiot. I am obessed with Liam James Payne who basically saved my life, he stopped me from killing myself so don't you ever put him down, he is the sweetest person in the whole world . Your world is 4.5 billion years old and mine is only 20, and he has a heart made of gold and is literally a angel the was brought here to save many lifes, including mine. Most people i know alway put him down but don't realise that he was there for me when they weren't. I'm so sick of people hating on me for obesessing over him, all day, everyday. I always get move on he's just a stupid crush. No, He is the person who was there for me when they weren't. He was the one who called me beautiful when i was at my worst, He was the one who saved my life when all you did was drag me down and wreck my heart. You broke my heart and he put it back together, I thank him with my whole heart for that. All he did was sing a song to save me and all you do is take that away from me. 

Last year i lost my best friend in the entire world, Allison. She was the one who showed me my lifesaver, No one else can do what she has done for me. She was/is the most beautiful and kind hearted person i have ever had the pleasure of knowing and trying to support but failed. Alli, i tried so hard for you to stay with me but nothing could of changed it. Never ever think that ill forget her because that is impossible to forget such an inspiration like herself.

Today was one of the hardest days of my life, after being 3 years clean i was about to start again and i dont even know why, i haven't been myself the past couple of  weeks and i really dont understand why i feel like this. I guess i'm just going though a rough patch of sick of being alone and not having a guy who loves me and cares for me at all but instead i have 4 amazing people who stopped me, which i could never be more grateful for. Thank you guys, You know who you are x  Never change. I couldn't still be here without you 4 x  I'm hoping for some better days this week hopefully i can try and make everything better for myself.

 Sincerley Olivia, if you ever need to talk I'm here for you. You are never alone and someone always has it way worse than you, See you soon and Please leave some feedback.

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