I Cant Control It

Maybe

     To completely follow our story line you must understand that Addison had a job. He still has one today not the same job, I liked his old one better, but his job was mowing lawns in the city he lived in. We didnt live in the same city but he lived about an hour away. Back to the story he got a new phone. Kinda my fault. Every weekend he came over. Dont get ahead of yourself, we never fucked, he didnt lay me on my bed and make sweet love to me, It just didnt happen like that. We watched movies he drank with my mom we got high we really just got super close he became my best friend. We did acid alot of the tome. Don't get me wrong it was so fun. My curtains were blurry we would watch movies. I'd lay on his chest. I was falling in love with him. But I couldnt. I can't. He always smelt so good I just get lost in his eyes. Everything about him was perfect. I don't even like boys I'd always think to myself this one is different. Maybe I could fall for him. Maybe it won't end badly. Maybe.