Our Goodbye

Train of thoughts

The running lights that flicker outside the train window looked so beautiful in the cold night. I kept thinking about how my dream made me change my way of seeing things, after I woke up that day I no longer had normal days, I was so consumed by the essence of it that I just couldn't think of anything else.

My mind went back on the  first moment the people around me was unconscious  and colorless, some may think that I just needed to take a few days of from work or I was just stressed out from school, but I knew it was more than that, I had the feeling of falling into a dark hole and never being able to get out of it. That's when It hit me, I was in fact in a lifeless city where I had no future but the one every one on else had...colorless.

The sound of Red yawning in my lap made me go back to earth, where the past is in the past and there's nothing but what's in front of me, a new life.

"Did I wake you up buddy? We will be there in a couple of hours"  Even though the train was delayde, the travel was going to be a long one, we were already two hours on the way and we still had a few more. 

The people on the train was either sleeping or checking their phones, the lights were tuned down for the sleepers but it was pitch black outside, I belive we were on the country side outside the outskirts of a city, I wasn't sure. 

I knew it was going to be a long journey yet, I couldn't sleep, not as well as Red that's for sure. Although I was tired, I just couldn't sleep, my eyes were tired and a headache was starting to make me frown. I searched for some pills in my bag and drink them with some coffee I bought in the restaurant wagon (if that's what theyre called), and hoped that it would go away. 

I sighed and moved my leg to be more comfortable but it was nearly impossible, Red kicked me in the stomach while stretching and went back to sleep."Impossible" I sighed. I moved ever so slowly and used all the space on my double seat to lay down so that both of us were more comfortable "At least I will, Red's already on his fourth dream" The thought of Red running  around in an open space with his tungue out made me laugh. 

"It's going to be alright Red, don't worry, at least we have each other..." His fur was so soft that sometimes I used his stomach as a pillow.

As I saw the danglin lights of a few houses on the opend lands, I felt my eyes heavy and a yawn escaped my mouth, I was getting sleapear by the minute but I just didn't wanted to fall assleep, I wanted to remember everything, so that when years go by, this would be the starting moment of my life.

I never really had friends, less a boyfriend. I didn't consider my self pretty and I didn't tried to be with someone either, my mind was so into my studies that guys were never a part of my daily life. 

I could see the "happy" couples all over the campus, some of them looked like there was no tomorrow, holding each others hands and smiling with a spark in their eyes I thought that by the end of the day they couldn't even eat anything. "What a strange way of seeing it" I thought.

Others looked really in love, they could be by each other's side, doing homework, studying or reading a book and never part from the other. You could see them in there own world, but at the same time, they were a part of the other. Yet again, what do I know?, I was just another student in the campus taking pictures of the trees and leaves and sometimes, when I could see no lies, I would take pictures at such couples.

I remember I used to spend hours in the library just thinking of another world. Looking at the one's around me didn't quite made the cut, I was expecting more from everyone and everything, the city was not my place to be. At least not this one.

I could just keep thinking and thinking about my past that not to long ago, i was a part of. But I had to sleep, even for a little bit, I needed it to keep up with tomorrow considering  that it was already night time and we were going to arrive around 3 in the morning.

But it doesn't matter, not anymore.

And with a last yawn, I let my dreams take over my mind.

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Hi guys! I hope you like the story so far, I couldn't publish anything this week(was it this week? I can't even tell time now)  I had a lot of homework and things to study so I wrote wad I could, but don't worry, more is yet to come ;)

Stay tuned and I'll see you in the next chapter ^^