"You know what, that is it, I am done. Let people enjoy their stupid bullshit happy lives and I'll just end mine. I've already done everything I'm supposed to, I saved the world, I fell in love, and so far my life is now just endless suffering as things just get worse and worse. So I say screw it all! I shouldn't have even survived the fall in the first place, I should have turned into a PANCAKE RIGHT THERE!!! FUCK YOU GIZMO FOR KEEPING ME ALIVE! But no more, my suffering ends here, there is no reason for me to even exist anymore so what is the god damn POINT! Rufus the hero is long dead, so it's about time I join him."
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"... That's it, I was just made so I can suffer. No matter what I do I just. Can't. DIE! I used to think it was something nice about me, like death wasn't something in my way, but not it's not even an option! ... I just want to die, that isn't so much to ask for is it? Is it so much to ask for a stab to work, a fall, overdosing on random pills, anything?! ... Or maybe I am dead and this is just hell, it would finally make sense in all this fucking bullshit. Maybe Satan just looked at me and decided "hey I know he saved tons of lives, but let's make him go god damn insane as we torture him for eternity" ... I am going crazy. I am losing my mind as we speak, hell maybe that would be nice since I probably won't be able to tell I'm suffering anymore if I'm batshit insane, huh Goal. ... I just called this thing Goal ... I-I'm going crazy ..."
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Forever Elysium Bound
Fanfictionafter the events of Goodbye Deponia it turns out Rufus has survived, but with the very last accession boat gone he finds that things won't turn out so good for himself
