Sweet Creature * {h.s | AU}

TWENTY EIGHT

"They described your book as a work of art! You are just simply amazing!" Alex got up from his chair and walked towards you to give you a hug. You blushed at his compliments.

He looked at you in the eyes with such pride that it makes you confident. "I'm even thinking of a book tour."

You laughed and shook your head, "you're kidding."

"I'm not," he smiled, "everyone will love to meet you. I'm sure of that."

Your smile grew wider. Just the thought of traveling to places has got you hyped up.

"Just think about it." he gave you a wink.

You left his office shortly after and has been thinking about his suggestion ever since. To travel the world. To meet people who admires your work and made your dreams come true. Surely you would give anything to meet them. But then there's Harry, the love of your life. As much as he loves you, you knew how wild and rude it would be to ask him to give up his career just to follow you. It isn't impossible for him to do so, just to much to even think about.

How much do you love your job? You had asked him once. The certainty in his eyes when he replied so much. You already knew that it would be too much. To ask the both of you to choose and position each in a dilemma of love and life.

"Hey handsome," you were standing before the counter of his coffee shop again.

Harry turned with a grin on his face, ears perked up at the honey voice of yours. "Bunny! What brought you here today?"

"A thought of surprising my love. How's your day so far?" You gave him a kiss on the lips when he leaned close.

"Mm, much better ever since you stepped in that door." he smiled, still he never fails to make you blush.

You ordered a cup of coffee and he was eager to make yours. "Are you free now?"

"Sure I am, always free for you." He held your coffee for yours and lead the way to a table in the corner. Your corner. When he sat your drink down, he ushered you to sit.

"I have some news." You both said in unison.

You giggled and both started to push each other to talk first. After seeing him being so stubborn, you decided to go first. "Alex is thinking about a book tour since my debut work is hitting off quite well now." He stayed silent, I sure of what to say, "I may be considering."

"Oh," he muttered under his breath.

"But nothing has been confirmed yet," you quickly added. "Now you go, what did you want to tell me."

"Nothing much, just wanted to say I found a place for us." You both had decided to move in to a bigger place and perhaps even adopt a cat on the night of celebration for the publish of your book. You could hear his disappointment, even though he has tried hard to cover it up with excitement of your book tour.

You held his hands in your and give it a gentle squeeze, "baby." His heart fluttered at the affectionate name you have given him, "I can call it off. We could live together, just the way it was supposed to be."

"No, go on that book tour, it's your dream." He could sense it. He could sense how much you wanted to go, and even if you had stayed, you wouldn't be happy. He knows you too well.

The strings in your heart pulled and wanted to agree with him. Wanted to go straight home and pack your bags. Harry. Harry. Harry. I want to go but I want you. You could only have so much in your life. It's a shame that sometimes you can only have one.

You couldn't sleep that night. Not peacefully, at least, knowing that Harry isn't. He could act so well. Cover everything up and hide it deep beneath the surface, just so you wouldn't worry. He hasn't moved, just laying awfully still in that position. Breathing so peacefully with a steady rhythm. But his mind isn't. It's panicking because goddamnit would it be so selfish to ask you to stay, for him? Would it be unfair to ask you to give up on your dreams because he doesn't want to give up on his? His dreams to someday marry you and live a life of yours and yours only, to start a family so loving. Fuck. Please stay, bunny. Please stay, I love you so much.

You didn't want to leave him behind either, knowing fully well about how he was abandoned before. Not even if voices inside your head whispers for you to make that call.
I want to stay. I want to be with him. I love him. That's what you want them to say. But they weren't. They were chanting for you to go on that book tour. You'll love it. And before that you'll forget your love for him already. You have worked so hard.

You could feel yourself going slowly insane. It's hard to choose between wanting to prove yourself to everyone and wanting to love someone and don't give a fuck.

Before the sun rises, you had made your decision. You had made that decision long ago. The reason you had worked so hard for.

"Alex?" You held the phone close to your ear, whispering even though you were outside the room and he wouldn't hear you. "Take me around the world."

You didn't wake him up to discuss this matter. Instead you kissed him on his forehead gently and went back to sleep for a few more minutes before the alarm goes off. You don't want to fight about it until you had to.

I still love you, please forgive me.