Sweet Dream or Beautiful Nightmare

Only once

Ziva's pov

The nurse took me back to my room and the doctors finished their checks. I keep thinking about what Tony was going to say to me before we crashed, but it kills me inside to think I might never know.

All the things that have happened between us, Kate and Ari, when I was on the run, Roy, Jeanne, the frog, Somalia, Kort, Ray, Ej, everything.

But what hurts me the most, I nevet told him that I love him, he is my Shannon, my soul mate, my everything. But I have a feeling the closest to love I'm ever going to get from him was last month

*flashback, to last month*

Tony and I were on an undercover stake-out thing, andwe got to keep our names. We had to pretend to be an engaged couple spying on an arms dealer, Oscar winter. We had to follow Oscar around a casino for 3 hours then leave to our hotel, where he was spying on us. Our room was filled with bugs and secret camera's, McGee couldn't get rid of them because he and Gibbs were in Washington while we are in Las Vegas, so we had to act like a couple. When we got back to the hotel if was late so we went to the restaurant in the hotel, it was sweet Tony feed me some of his stake and I fed him some of my pasta, it didn't feel like we were pretending it felt natural like something we've always done, we shared a cookie dough cake with ice cream and one spoon. we stayed there for about an hour after eating, drinking wine and talking. Once the bottle of wine was finished we went back to our room. We sat on the bed talking when Tony pulled me close to him and making me giggle, I looked up at him and realised how close our lips were. We starred into each other's eye's and he started to lean his head down, until his lips crashed into mine. At first the kiss was sweet and gentle but it soon got heated and passionate, he licked my bottom lip begging for entrance which I allowed, are tongues fought for dominance, he ran his hands over my legs and eventually grabbed hold of my thighs pulling me onto his lap so I was straddling him, he laid down pulling me with him. One of my hands ran over his chest while the other was playing with his hair. After a few minutes I put both my hands on his chest and pushed myself up, I starred into his beautiful Green eyes. When I pushed myself up I pushed into his groin, his hands came on my bum to pushed me harder into him. "We don't have to, if you don't want to" he said to me, I thought it was really sweet be didn't want to pressure me "I want nothing more, don't worry Tony" I leant back down and started kissing him again. When we were kissing I stayed grinding against his groin and moaned and pulled away "are you sure Zi? Cause of you keep doing that it might kill me and I won't be able to stop"    "stop worrying Tony, just enjoy"    the worried look on his face quickly changed to happiness and pleasure. He had on hand running over my back and the other on the back of my neck, I grinned on him again and he moaned and I felt him harden under me, on of my hands was in his hair and the my other slowly slid down his chest and under his pants, where I started to slowly rub him to tease him. I took my hand out of his pants and Tony moaned with disappointment, I pulled off his shirt and tie, he flipped us over so he was on top and my top was off in a flash along with my bra, his hands ran over my chest exploring all of me, my hands were removing his pants and underwear. After his clothes were off he started to remove mine. We lay there kissing naked when he's on top of me. He pulls away and starts kissing down my neck, across my chest, down my stomach, until he reached my slit be kissed gently then quickly plunged his tongue in and out, after a few seconds he stopped and kissed my lips again, his hands ran up the inner of my thighs and he put on finger in me making me moan and he smiled onto my lips. My hands were on his back pulling him closer to me and I quickly put another finger to me making me moan even louder, I put my hand around him and started and play with his special part. We were moaning into each other when he took out his hand, grabbed both of mine and held them above my head, he lowered onto me, I felt him slowly enter me, he stayed there waiting for me to adjust to his size. He entwined our fingers and I kissed him telling him I was ready. He pushed in and out slowly at first but with each thrust he got quicker and harder  every time I be pushed I screamed louder and louder. I screamed the loudest I have ever when pushed and I released, once more push and Tony moaned my name and fell into me. Out of breath we stayed there for an hour until Tony started to move "where are you going?"   "I don't wanna crush you Zi"   "stay, I love it"  he laid back onto me, his arms tightly around my waist and his head in the crook of my neck, my hand was playing with his hair and the other was drawing shapes onto his shoulder. We woke up and Tony acted like nothing happened, so we never spoke of it again.

*end of flashback*

The doctor came back in but I could not read the expression on her face

"Hello miss David"

"it's prounanced Dav-eed, call me Ziva"

"My apologises Ziva, we have the results from your blood test"

" is it bad?"

"no, no, not at all, congratulations Ziva your pregnant"

"thankyou" I couldn't help but smile and hold my stomach. I'm carrying a baby, my baby, Tony's baby and I couldn't be happier. If Tony dies I will still have apart of him that I could never lose, I always wanted to get married, and have children with Tony and only Tony and now I am not I wish we could be more of a family

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what do you think? Ziva's pregnant with Tony?  Who saw that one coming?  ~ jazzie ♡