bad choices

chapter one

maybe I was making g bad choices . maybe he was making bad choices . maybe everyone makes bad choices everyday . I definitely was every time I stayed the night with Kyle and every time I lied to mat .

I had tried to tell him . I wanted to so bad . but I couldn't it would break his heart .

"you had a good night?" mat asked me looking like he didn't actually want to know the answer .

"sure"I replied not wanting to give him answer . I didn't want to lie to him more than I had to .

"sash you know I love you?"

"yep, corse I do" I said looking for my keys in my bag.

"well.. you would tell me if something was going on ? like if another guy came along. granted they wouldn't be as good looking as me but still would you? because I ju-

"sorry it's been a long day and I'm just super tied"I interrupted not wanting him to finish.

"but you would wouldn't you?"he asked as I quickly unlocked the door wanting to get inside as soon as possible.

"yeh corse"

"promise?" he said and I could see in his eyes that he would not move until I promised back .

so I made another bad choice ."I promise"

"ok , cool . see you tomorrow."he said then leaned forward and kissed me.

every kiss that we had was another piece of his heart that would brake when he found out about me and Kyle .

I locked the door beind me and went straight to my room . Kyle was there as I knew he would be.

"how was it?" he asked me in his slow and sexy voice.

"horrendous! I'm breaking his heart you know that ?"

I whispered as I flung my coat shorts and shoes onto the floor. just leaving me in my top.

"I know , and I would be doing the same if phebs hadn't gone back to Melvin."  as he replied to me he pulled me down into bed next to him.

"your so lucky you know that right?"I said to him leaning on top of him so our faces where almost touching .

"yep cuz I get to lie next to this perfect body nearly every night "he moved his hands around my body pulling me closer to him.

"ah, yes that does make you a lucky. and me on the other Hand meh.. I guess I'm kinda lucky , but I could do better"I laughed .

Kyle rolled me over so that he was now on top of me . and started tickling me.

"say that your lucky"he laughed at me.

"never, that would mean surrendering !"

"sayit"

" never"

"I'll just keep tickling you!!"

"okey okey , I guess I'm  lucky to have you to hold me at night"I said  surrendering.

"well done doesn't that make you feel better ?"

"ha, so much better ! now you tell me how much you love me "I said biting my bottom lip.

"I love you, and it kills me that we can't be together in front of everyone"he said looking deep into my eyes.

I didn't say anything for a second.

"I love you to , and one day we will leave the bay and be together ."

he leaned in and kissed me. we rolled over so I was back ontop of him. I rapped my legs around his body, and we sat up still our lips together. he bit my bottom lip then we just sat there for a while. my arms wrapped around his hanging over my legs and his hands meeting were my bum is . and our bodys close as if we were trying to get away with being one person. I don't remember getting off him to ly down and go to sleep. but the next morning we woke to the sound of my alarm and Kyle kissed me and climbed out the window . I would have to pretend like we weren't together for yet another day. a bad choice that doesnt seem to be going away.