When I look back,
I remember sitting at the computer,
Conjuring up words that don’t fit,
Words never fit us.
What I felt was too...
Indescribable
Words were...
Too impure...
For what I felt.
But never for what you felt.
When I look back,
Everything was just a joke to you, right?
Everything that was anything was fake,
For me,
A waste of time,
A waste of hope.
For you,
A joke,
A laugh from your friends.
I was blinded by you.
It was like you had put your hands on my eyes,
And told me to trust you.
You lead me through
Traps,
Lies,
Jokes,
But yet, I followed.
Hoping that things would change.
But the only thing that changed was that I was left
In between two paths,
You, heading to the left.
Foolishly, I followed.
But the path only held hurt,
The path held countless nights of crying,
Things that poked and probed at my heart,
The path held darkness,
The path held insecurity.
And when it was finally over,
When I was in the clear.
You weren’t there,
And I was left all alone
