Cry If You Need To

Chapter 1

Two years ago.
He made promises, promises he couldn't keep...
He promised to stay with me forever and no matter what happens, his love would never fade
Oh how damn clichè
But I believed him
I was so naive
So blinded by my infatuation
Love struck

Every second of the day with him was bliss. With him, there's no place I'd rather be. In his arms was where I wanted to be. The warmth of his love radiating as we embraced.
The passion that aroused when we kissed was an unmissable presence.
Every thing faded and he was the centre of my world

Little did I know that all that would change as soon as we split and went to different high schools. We kept our relationship with faith that our love wont fail and distance will not tear us apart
But sadly, it did, day by day

We talked and tried to keep everything the same despite the distance. We met up but... it just wasn't there anymore
The spark we had
The electricity that would run down my spine at his every touch
The butterflies that would flutter at his every dashing smile
The fire that would be set ablaze at every magical kiss
         It was all gone

But oh my pure heart stayed strong through all the yearnings and nostalgia it went through.
While his heart... well it gave up
And he allowed the love to fade. He didn't fight for the the love to stay. He didn't...

He forgot all about me. It's like we were two strangers just bound by the titel: "couple"
It was horrible
I did all that I could but, it just  wasn't enough
It seemed as if I was irritating him or bothering him every time I wanted to start a conversation

The doubts began to fill up my mind. That cloud, of the forbidden thought would always make it's way to my mind... and the image appeared
The heart breaking image of him and another girl, a new found love
My replacement
Someone better than me
I wasn't good enough
I wasn't pretty enough for him anymore
I probably bored him

These were the thoughts that would always make their way to me no matter how many positive and "happy" thoughts I used to block them away

What messed me up was that he didn't seem to care at all.  Our relationship was a sinking ship and he didn't seem fazed
He never asked me "what happened to us" or "can you feel it too? The connection, it's gone"

This went on for two months and i just couldn't take any more of it. I  decided to "trick" him just to see if he really still does love me

I was tired and I knew that he didn't love me anymore but I just kept dismissing that thought because I wanted him to tell me straight up so that I can somehow accept it and ... move on with my life