Turning Pages

Chapter II

(November 2017)

"Don't make this harder than it needs to be Jamie. If you want to move on then fine, I'll move on as well, the feeling will always be there but don't expect me to say it."

"Will we keep in touch?" That was our last conversation, the last text I sent and didn't get an answer. The only thing keeping me going and giving me hope is that she always keeps in touch with my girls.

(January 2018)

When talking to Dulcie, Jamie would try to get in and talk to me, which I couldn't say no to because of that beautiful little girl but it wouldn't be more that casual talk like "Hey, how are you?".

Flashback to December 2017

"When are you coming to visit us Dee?"

Her eyes were filled with hope and I didn't have the heart to tell her what was going on. – " Dee has been very busy lately, and Mama Mel misses me as well so I need to visit her. But I'll see you soon, promise."

"Pinky promise?"

"Yes baby girl, pinky promise."

End of flashback

The fact is, I miss them, I miss him, and I promised Dulcie I'd come visit her and Elva so for the first time since November I decided to call Jamie, it's around 10pm in England so odds are the girls are sleeping and I don't want them to know I'm thinking about visiting. I grab my phone and dial Jamie's number. As soon as he picks up I freeze.

"Dakota? Hey, Dakota, are you there?"

"Hm hi, I'm here sorry."

"How are you?"

"I'm good, you?"

"Fine" – I should've thought this through, it's been so long and I miss him but I can't go there, he let me go, I need to do the same.

"Dakota, you called, is something wrong?"

"Right, no, nothing's wrong, I was thinking about visiting the girls sometime soon, if that's okay. I promised them I would soon and with premieres coming and more filming after, I don't know if I'll have time, and I thought –"

"Dakota, calm down. It's more than okay actually, they'd love for you to visit, you're all they talk about actually, I guess it's a Dornan family trait."

"Jamie, don't go there, please."

"Sorry, I just miss you, a lot."

"When do you think would be a good time? I mean, I don't really want to see Amelia and cause any trouble."

"How soon can you be here?"

"Well, as soon as you think it's okay, I'm free this next couple of weeks."

"Come tomorrow then, it's my turn to have the girls and it would be a nice surprise."

My turn, what? - "What do you mean, my turn?"

"Right, we haven't really talked much since November but a lot has changed. Last time we talked, you called me an asshole, and you're right, I was, and I still am, but I'm working to be less of an asshole. I filed for divorce a few weeks later and we settled for shared custody."

"You did WHAT?"

"I should've done it before but I was blinded by everything. I finally started seeing things clearly. I couldn't keep this going. No more pap walks from me, no more happy family or at least not with her. Dakota, I know I messed up, too many times for my own good but I've never doubted my love for you, it just wasn't the time but we can make this work, we can and we will."

"Jamie, you can't just drop a bomb like that and expect me to fall at your feet. Our last call was less than pleasant, and I'm not sure how easily we can make this work."

"Easily or not, I'll fight for you, I won't give up on you. I love you and I hope you can forgive this asshole. Just come here and I can explain everything better. Please."

"I will, but for the girls, I don't want to fight in front of them. I'll tell you when I book my flight. I'll see you soon."

"Sooner, rather than laters baby!"

This man, I love him, I do, but can I trust him and just go back to him? No, I don't think I can, we need to talk things through and work on everything but God do I miss him.

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It's been too long but the second chapter is here, I hope you enjoy! I'll be posting a lot more often from now on, promise. :)