I turn off my phone after unfollowing Nadia.
I can't believe it. I can't believe her.
I trusted her over everyone and all she did was use it against me.
I don't know wether to feel mad or sad. I just feel heartbroken.
Everyone told me she was lying to me, but I decided not to believe any of them.
How am I suppose to face Lauren, Annie, Johnny and Hayden next week when we're back on tour.
I such a bad friend, Johnny is never going to forgive me.
I wouldn't forgive myself either if I was them.
I lock my bedroom door knowing that Maddie or my mom will rush in here once they find out.
I cry into my pillow for what feels like hours and eventually fall asleep.
~~~
I wake to banging on my door and yelling from a familiar face.
"Kenzie are you okay? Open the door right now!" Maddie yells.
I check my phone, I had thousands of missed calls from my friends. Wait can I even call them that?
"I'm fine! You can go hang out with your friends." I yell staying in bed.
"You're coming with me wherever I go, so open the door. I'll help you get ready."
"I just want to stay home..."
"No! That's not healthy! Now open this door."
I stand up to unlock the door, giving up on my plan to watch Netflix for the rest of the day.
"Gosh Kenz, you look horrible." She says hugging me.
"Geez thanks." I roll my puffy red eyes.
"Why were you crying?" Maddie asks, did she not know?
"Haven't you been on Instagram." I ask trying to blink the tear forming in my eyes away.
"No, what happened?"
"I don't want to talk about it, can you just let me sleep?" I ask getting back in bed.
"You can't sleep your problems away."
"Yes, I can. Watch me."
"No you can't, Mom invited the Summerall's, Leblanc's, Orlando's and Turner's over for a barbecue."
"What!"
"Yeah, she didn't-" she gets interrupted by my phone ringing.
My screen lights up with a FaceTime call from Juan Ortiz and a picture of Johnny smiling.
Maddie reaches for my phone, but I quickly press on the red button.
"You can ignore everyone forever." She says walking out of my room.
I guess she is right, I take a deep breath, but I sure can try.
~~~
It rings a couple times before he picks up.
I cover the camera with my finger waiting for his face to pop up
In a bit, his face shows up along with Lauren, Hayden, and Annie.
They seemed happy that I finally called back.
"Hi guys." I say trying to sound normal.
"Oh my gosh, I'm so happy you're okay." Lauren speaks first.
"You are okay, right?" Hayden asks.
"Can we see your face?" Annie ask before I could respond to Lauren or Hayden.
I feel a tear roll down my face, "I'm fine."
"Are you sure, Kenz?" Johnny asked with a worried expression.
"Don't lie to us because we are coming over in like 5." Lauren adds.
"I'm swear I'm fine, you guys don't have to worry." I try to convince them.
I don't deserve such good friends.
"Then show us your face." Hayden orders.
"I- I have to go." I hang up before they can respond.
I didn't even apologize.
~~~
"Open the door Kenz!" I hear Annie's voice through the other side of the door.
"Who is with you?" I ask hoping Nadia wasn't with them.
"Just Me, Hayden and Johnny." Lauren answers.
I spent the 30 minutes applying makeup to my ugly face.
You couldn't really tell that I had been crying now. All I have to do is fake a smile.
I take a deep breath before unlocking the door.
"Hey guys." I say opening the door.
"You're okay!" Lauren says hugging me.
In a matter of seconds, they are are squeezing me in a hug.
Guilt rushes through me making me feel awful.
"I'm sorry for not believing you guys. I shouldn't have trusted Nadia."
"You don't need to apologize Kenz." Lauren smiles.
"Yeah, you didn't know what was going on." Hayden adds.
"I shouldn't had tried to ignore you guys though, so I'm sorry."
"It fine Kenz, you don't need to apologize." Annie says.
"Can I talk to Kenz alone?"
