Poetry

Complicated

Complicated.

That is what this situation is.

It is complicated.

But is it really? 

We all use this word when we don't know how to explain something.

But that doesn't mean it's complicated.

It just means we don't have a large enough vocabulary.

Or it means we don't want to talk about it.

This sitution is pretty simple, really.

I mean, you have girlfriend who you have with for a while and you still have feelings.

I am single and trying to move on from someone, but I have never had a first kiss or real boyfriend.

We clearly have chemistry, but, let's face it.

This is not something that would last.

You offered to be my first kiss.

Yes, when I am around you I am nervous and my body goes insane. 

But my heart isn't in it. 

As much as my body wants it, I can't do it.

One, because you have a girlfriend.

Two, because I don't want my first kiss to be with a cheater, no matter how much you compliment me or how nice you are.

And three, because I don't want to be called names and my reputation stained.

Four, because my mom would probably have a heart attack because you are legally an adult, even though I am only two years younger. 

So many reasons I shouldn't.

This is toxic, so I must have willpower.

Not to mention, I am saving it for someone else..

Whoever that might be, as long they aren't a cheater, like you.

So, no, this is not really complicated.

It's pretty simple: the answer is no.

I didn't run from the explanation, because "It's complicated" isn't my thing. 

Because nothing is really complicated. 

It is just hard to accept, which is dfferent, or it is shameful, or you're a coward. 

But nothing is really "complicated," is it?