well, i am back again. and it's the anniversary yet again. i never stop thinking about you. last year was a dark time, but i've gotten a lot better. do you remember that boy that you would stand with after school and he would tell stupid jokes? yeah, he's my best friend now and he's pretty freaking amazing. he's been a light in my life i didn't think i would find. there isn't a day that passes where you don't cross my mind. you're dad is still doing great, and your mom is getting there too. you're brothers are doing amazing. and you know that today's gonna be super rough on my sister, but i hope that maybe she'll find her peace with it all. you're friends are doing a lot better, even though ik they wish you were there alongside them. writing these letters to you really help. and seeing my growth from last year is insane. sometimes those thoughts try to take over, but they won't win bc i won't let them. my anxiety has gotten worse, but we fight through it. honestly, i haven't been this happy in a while though. and that sounds so crazy to say. i've found some amazing friends in this last year, and lost some toxic ones. i looked back at that note and i've decided that i want my first tattoo to be your signature from that note. i can't wait till then. but anyways, i love and miss you, as always. i wish we could've made more memories, but i'll see you one day.
-A-
