fear and hope

chapter 3

A/N I've changed josephine's name to jamie, i couldnt find the right middle name and its still early on the story so the change wasnt too risky. Sorry guys XD

-flashback-

Two packs faced each other in mixes of man and wolf, human features hostile and lupine hackles raised. One pack was led by my father and the other by a wolf who was near his age. The strange alpha clicked his teeth together and walked toward my father, a noncholant grin on his face but when he got too close his unperterbed expression was replaced by a fearful one. Probably because i placed myself between the two men and growled lowly, who know's, i thought with a mental shrug, it might have been because he realised i didnt have a smell, but had an overpowering will, straight white teeth and brilliant manners. I laughed and the strange alpha backed up a few steps, i took a step foward to pursue him but my father flicked his ears back, mentally calling me to his side, i glanced at the main threat to my pack and flashed my teeth at him, a warning and a challange. He snarled in response and i took another thratening step toward him, ignoring the whining voices in my mind.

"Why dont you keep your Bitch in line" the alpha asked my father and in response he snorted

"That Bitch is my daughter. No one has any chance of controling her".

"Give my son five minutes with her and you'll see how submissive she is" the man said grinning and i snarled before closing the gap between us with three angry strides.

"Now listen here you little gutter-mouthed bastard-born son a dog, i would love to beat your son's face into pulp but i dont think hes worth it-" i smirked before continuing "especially if he has a big mouth like you"

The man scoffed, feeling brave i guess, and said

"well, arent we a little egotistic. If my son's combat skills arent worth your attention, why dont you face me?"

His comment made the members of his pack guffaw but no one in my pack flinched.

"I dont think you'd be able to face me without cowardice"

His face became the picture of rage

"I, Zac Brown, alpha of nightwolf pack, challenge you-"

I cut him off with a polite cough and finished his sentence with a bored expression masking my features

"Jamie neila amador, future first beta, shadow weaver and commander of the lunafang forces. Sister to the soul-born heir and soon to be fire king. You have nothing on me but i accept your little game."

His clenched his fists, anger incresing and said

"You're a liar, thats all you are and ever will be"

"That may be so" i reply with a shrug "but its better than being an alpha without honour"

Alpha Zac gave me a strange look and started to reply

"You'll cut yourself on your wit one da-" but was cut off by his luna, who lunged at me in her war-form and nocked me to the ground. The noise from both jeering packs extinguished as soon as i hit the ground but started up immediately after i changed into my own beast, wriggling out from beneath her and clamping my jaws down on her shoulder. She was hurt, but didnt yelp or whine like a puppy, instead she thrashed and tore free of me before starting to circle me, limping but mostly unharmed... for now,
"i wont leave here with just a mouthful of her shoulder" kaitlyn, my wolf, growled angrily as i opened my jaws to let the meat fall from between my teeth.

I paused and looked at alpha zac's luna
"she did attack us..." i said slowly "but maybe-"
"Shut-up and hurt her already" kaitlyn snapped "her life must end, look around you, if you show mercy now, in front of everyone, you will look weak"
I growled, she was right and i hated it, if i faught, i was cruel, if i didn't, i was worthless.
Being the bad guy was the lesser of two evils i muttered, strengthening my resolve. The only thing i can do for this mongrel is make it quick. She must've seen me come to the conclusion i did because when i took a step toward her she turned to flee.

...

Time slowed down.
I lunged toward my opponent and landed directly between her shoulders, snapping her spine... crippling her.
I felt my claws peirce her skin.
I watched red stain her pretty white pelt.
I smelt the fear of the people around me when i bent over her prone body and put my teeth on either side of my neck.
I couldn't bring myself to meet zac's eyes, i didnt have it in me to look at his son either, who was crying silent tears.
I swallowed past the taste of iron in my mouth and bit down hard before jerking my head to the side. Ending her.

-end of flashback-

I looked at seraph and everything fell into place, i remembered the young traumatized expression i caught on his face when i turned away from her body. I remembered his aganized screams that mixed with zac's when i was following my father into the forest, i remembered the last word that woman uttered and now understood it.
She said seraph,
she spent her last seconds trying to tell her son something and i didn't allow it.
Guilt and terrible realisation filled me.
This was my fault.
I created someone like me... And now i would suffer through whatever he thought i deserved quitely with the knowledge that I wouldn't even attempt to escape this.

"Im so sorry"

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*cringes*
 
    ^ thats all i have to say XD.

Bye