"The sun comes up on another morning, mymind never wakes up without you on it. " I heard someone singing and I ran my fingers through my hair frustated. I get up from the bed and opened the door. "What the hell dude, this was 6am in the morning. What makes you think you can just singing around. Do you think that wasn't annoying? because its hella' annoying! Stop singing or I'm going to punch you in the face. Get it?" I asked and he was speechless and nodded but still get a chance to run from me. I smiled and go to my apartement back. I can't sleep and decide to grabbed my journals and wrote something.
Wendesday 13 January 2014
I didn't wrote anything yesterday because I got busy with Ariana's picture. Yes baby, this guy have her name already. You don't think I'm going to have her name right? well, look who's talking. I get her name already and it was beautiful as her. Today isn't really a great day for me. There's this some guy who randomly sang in front of my apartement at 6 fucking am in the morning. I'll be back to write some words because it's park time. I would love to meet Ariana again. See you journal books
I brushed my teeths and change my clothes. I grabbed my beanies because it seems cool outside. I fixed my hair and smile at my rearview in the mirror. I exited my room and looked through the window since the park is right in front of my apartement. She already arrived with some guy. This is the first time I saw her using a glasses, and beanie. That guy give her a books and he kissed her forehead. Who the hell is this guy? She's mine first sir I don't know who's your name. I quickly go to the park and waved at her. "Ariana! Hey! It's Harry" I make my way towards her and she sighed as she fix her beanies. "Here, let me fix it for you" I said while doing my job. She looked at me right in the eyes and I couldn't stop smiling. I swear she smiled back at me. When I finished doing my job she thanked me and I nodded. I followed her and she seems didn't care about it so I keep walking and sit right next to her.
"Who's that guy?" I started to speak. "Oh you mean Avan? He's my brother. Why?" She asked and I only shake my head teling her that it was nothing. She then open up her books and read some new books and it was "The Fault In Our Stars" by John Green. What's up with this girl and new books?
I take a picture of her while reading and she suddenly looked up. "Delete that one" She said, trying to grabbed my polaroid. I snuck out my tongue at her. "I need this okay? You can go back and read your book because I really need a picture of you. Please?" I asked giving her a puppy eyes. What I didn't realized is, her body is so closed with mine and I couldn't help but blushing. She sighed and nodded, but she continued reading her books. "Hey, why there's a tattoo in your hands? You seems like a witch" I joked and I think that one caught her guards off. "Look, I don't think we have to be that close. I can't be your friends really." She said calmly but it didn't look like it was calm. "Please just let me be your friends" I said and then the conversation went like this :
Ariana : no we can't . I need you to stay away from me as far as you can! Just please leave me alone
Me : No Ariana, I already know your name and I just sit right next to you, I fixed your beanies, this is the first time I took a picture like this close to you. I don't want you to act like I was some stranger who love to creep on you. i just want you to know that I had memorized you for a years, I keep this feeling but guess what? The more you hide your feelings, the more stronger your feeling towards that person. So its up to you. Do you want us to be friends or if you want me to be a stranger, slapped me in the face and I'll understand and I'll leave you alone for forever. You get that Ariana Grande-Butera?
Suddenly, the air went so cold, and not like before. It was really like a snow hit your heart, and there was a quick lightning thunder right behind Ariana. She stand there and let me speechless and just leave me. But her beanies was still with me. Sigh, it was a bad day really. I should probably going back to my apartement and just eat or watching some old movies I mean who cares? I hate this day already.
***
I lay in my beds and watching "Sleepless in Seattle". But my brain seems couldn't focus on what happen with the film, Ariana was all in my mind. Fuck this. I feel too much. I mean, she's just perfect even with imperfections. I love her with everything. I would probably give my life to her if she asked me, but maybe when I'm old enough because I don't wanna die on 20 years old. That was too fucked up.
I put the beanies right next to me and I looked at the park again. She was there but what strange is that, she didn't read any books. I would really want to sit with her but remembering what happen today, I was afraid. Maybe she's still mad at me. I honestly don't know. She suddenly looks up and her eyes meet mine. I was shocked and turn away and closed the window. That was so close
[A/N : there's a picture of Ariana's clothes right beside on this bar. Sucks story but give it a try]
