Off camera /The Dolan Twins

8. Lifelesson

'Are you okay?!' I screamed. I immediately knew that calling the ambulance was probably useless. They could never find us. They could also never come earlier then the storm. 'Ethan, I have to carry you on my back, okay? It's going to hurt I know but we have to'. Ethan looked at me with tears in his eyes. He nodded and after a bit of struggling he sat on my back. I picked up our bags and we went to go down very carefully. Ethan moaned and he was bleeding very bad. The rain made the pain even worse. This felt like the worst day ever. We finally came back on the footpath and I followed the signs. I was very tired and it was very heavy the carry Ethan, but the fear of losing Ethan kept me walking. In the mean time the big black cloud covered the entire sky and I knew there wasn't much time left before it would start to thunder above us. Since we were on the footpath again I started running. My heart razed and I was feeling dizzy but I kept on going. Finally I saw our car standing on the flooded road. I ran to the car and tilled Ethan in the backseat. I called 911. The man told us that it would be safer to go by ourselfs to the hospital since it was going to take a while before the ambulance would come. He gave me instructions on what to do with Ethan. 

The wipers went back and forth to get the flowing rain of the window. The water splashed against our car and the thunder was bad. I drove at 100 km per hour even though it was a small road. Cars honked at us and I got angry looks. If they knew what was going on they would probably have reacted differently. My heart was pounding. 'You can do this, buddy, we are almost there'. I told Ethan and looked in the mirror. I saw him breathing heavily and I could see his pain. His situation became worse and worse. I gave more gas and then finally saw the hospital. 

Ethan was laying on the stretcher and nurses where running him to the operation room. Ethan was almost unconscious and had his eyes closed. It felt horrible to see him like that. I couldn't go any further with the nurses and had let go of Ethan's hand. 'I love you Ethan'. I said almost crying. He tried to say something back but the only thing he could do was giving me a little squeeze in my hand. I couldn't let it in anymore and started to cry. The tears were coming down my face and a few nurses tried to help me. They brought me to a room to calm down, gave me some water and then left me there. I stopped crying a bit and put my head in my hands. I just lost my mind at this point. I didn't knew why this had to happen to Ethan. We should have never go to that hill. I should have never panicked about something so small. I suddenly realized there were much bigger problems in this world and that death could come any second. I don't know why but I couldn't understand why I ever worried about failing or hate comments. This horrible day opened my eyes. Live in the moment because it can always be the last. This thought made me sad and anxious but at the same time I felt my anxiety from the past weeks slipping away. I don't think I ever felt this much emotions at the same time. I was driving insane. Then I thought about Noah. I had to call her, I couldn't sit here in my own. 

'What?! O my... are you okay?' I'm coming right now. Stay calm' I hang up the phone and I felt anxiety going trough my body. Ethan had an accident and had to go in surgery? Why did this happen? How did this happen? I had so many questions. I felt horrible for both Ethan and Grayson. 

My mom and I didn't say anything. I was just staring at the window and looked at the falling rain. My mom drove very fast. After a few minutes we came at the hospital. 'Do I have to get inside with you?' she asked me. 'I have to do this alone, mom' I gave her a kiss and thanked her for bringing me. I walked inside and smelled the unpleasant smell of hospitals. I hate that smell. It reminds me of all the bad things that happen in the world. I walk to the desk. 'Hi, I'm here for Grayson and Ethan Dolan'. The woman looks at me for a second and mumbles something I can not understand. She moves over to her computer and types something. 'You have to go to the waiting room of first aid, you can ask the people there what to do'. She looks so grumpy. I didn't do anything to deserve a grumpy lady. 'Thanks'. 

I sat down on a chair. I didn't saw Grayson anywhere, but then he walked in the waiting room. 'Grayson!' I yelled. I ran to him and almost fell in his arms. It felt like we were hugging forever. 'Are you okay? Where is Ethan? Is he okay?'. 'I could be better. They are operating Ethan right now. The doctor said he will be alright'. I can see tears coming in his eyes. 'Oh Grayson..'. I say and give him a hug. He starts to cry. 'I don't know what to do anymore, Noah. I have been worried about small things the past few weeks, but I now realize that your life can be ended anytime. I don't want my life to be controlled by small fears anymore'. I think about that for a second. 'That's true Grayson. I think you're right. Everything will be alright'. He stops hugging me and grabs my arms. He looks in my eyes and I look back. He leans forward and kisses me. But this time it's not on my cheeks. I kiss him back. 'Thank you, Noah. Thank you for being here. I love you'. I'm about to say that I love him to when the doctor comes in. 'Grayson, can you come with me for a second?'. He looks serious.