Off camera /The Dolan Twins

7. Unexpected

I had been thinking about Grayson all night. When I left his house yesterday something weird happened between us. I was tying my shoes and was almost ready to go. Grayson was just looking at me and smiled. I stood up and said 'Thank you for being here Grayson'. 'Thank you too' he said and we both looked each other in the eyes. It was deadly quiet for a moment and I could feel the heat between us. Then Grayson broke our silence by leaning forward. He kissed me on the cheeks. 'See you next time Noah', he said and he gave me a hug. I felt my cheeks getting red. 'Goodbye Grayson', I said smiling and I walked away. He waved at me while I got in the car. I felt something I never felt before. Was this the feeling of being in love? Was it just a friendly kiss, or does he likes me? I kept thinking about it and stared through the dirty window. I saw people passing by and the trees looked like they waved at me. I felt weird but extremely happy.

I closed the door. What did I just do? She probably thinks I'm a weirdo now. Who the hell gives a kiss on the cheek. I should have kissed her. I feel so dumb. Why do I always fail. She probably doesn't even like me. I got mad at myself and at the world. Everything went always wrong if I did something.  I just couldn't stand myself. I'm not made for this world. I just feel like I have to be perfect. I went to on YouTube and did the dumbest thing you can do when you're sad. I read the comments beneath our latest video. Of course there were a lot of sweet comments but I also read the mean comments. 'He is only trying to get attention, he just wants more subs', 'He is just faking it so he can get views', 'I feel like Grayson is getting uglier everyday' .  I kept reading for a while. It felt horrible. I had to go outside and free my mind but I didn't go because I didn't want people to see me. I felt myself getting anxious and I wasn't even around people. Should I call someone? I wanted to call Noah but that would be weird. I went in my phone and typed Ethan's name. I called him. 

'Hey Ethan, I have to get away. I don't feel good. Can you pick me up ?'  I said. He kept quiet for a moment. 'Are you alright? '   he asked with a concerned voice.  'Just come pick me up please' . Ok, stay calm, I'm on my way. '  he said and hang up. In... Out... In... Out... Don't panic Grayson there is no need to. 

We were sitting on the green grass, watching the red sun slowly sinking into the sea. We were sitting on our favorite spot. Nobody ever came here. It was high up in the hills and it was so peaceful. We just found it one day by accident when we were discovering this hill.

Ethan calmed me down and now we were just talking about how to move on. I told him about the comments I read and I had to promise Ethan I wouldn't read the comments anymore. I also told him about Noah. Finally. He was a little bit surprised. Most because of the fact it was Noah from the meet & greet. So a fan. I explained to him how it happened and he could understand she was different. I was happy he wasn't mad or something.

We kept on talking until we saw something strange. A massive cloud was moving to LA very fast. We could hear the sound of a thunderstorm in the distance. 'Yo, we have to go Gray! That cloud is coming fast and getting down takes a long freaking time!' I saw the panic in Ethan's eyes. 'Let's run! Now!' We  picked up our bags and we started running down. It started to rain very hard and the cloud came closer. I felt the hard rain falling on my hot shoulders. They were burned. We zigzagged around the trees and jumped over the stones and branches. The rain made the ground wet and it was very slippery. 'We have to slow down Ethan, there is to much  mud!' I screamed but Ethan just kept running. I knew he didn't like thunderstorm but it was too dangerous. Than Ethan stumbled over a big stone that slightly pointed upwards. He fell flat on his face and then just rolled down. It seemed like he was never going to stop rolling. My heart stopped for a second. 'Grayson, help!' He screamed from the pain and finally stopped falling. I didn't know what to do. I ran down to him and I saw the pain in his eyes. He had wounds everywhere. He was awake and moaned from the pain. He couldn't stand up and we weren't even close to the road and our car. I got so scared and my thought just blocked. It was like I froze and in the meantime the cloud just came closer and closer...