It's raining outside, it reminds me of you. Lately everything thing reminds me of you the way you used to walk, talk and everything else you did sometimes I wonder why it had to happen to you? why did you have to die? Remember the first summer we met you were so drunk but you still looked so beautiful or the first winter we spent together? I miss you more than you could ever imagine .
"LILY HURRY UP" I heard my friend Rachel shout for me from downstairs "I'M COMING JESUS CHRIST HOLD ON" I really don't know why we have to go to this party at this weird beach I would rather stay at home and write but I should hurry up because I don't want Rachel to be pissed at me the whole night if were late. "LILY WHAT ARE YOU DOING WERE GONNA BE LATE AGAIN" I heard her screech as she climbed the steep beige stairs "I said I was coming can't I fucking have 10 minutes?" I was starting to get pissed I don't care if were gonna be late she doesn't need to be a bitch to me "Okay sorry but can we start going?" ”I guess" I truly did not want to go but I'm being forced.
"Turn this up" Wake me up when September ends is my favorite song it has been my favorite song since it came out it relates to me so much when everything in the world turns to utter shit this song makes me feel 20 times better no matter what " Lily you know I hate this song" I could tell Rachel was getting annoyed with me I can't help it I live to annoy her.
"Finally were here!" you could hear the eagerness in her voice "Do I really have to go to this thing I don't even know anyone here?" I was already past annoyed Rachel knows I don't do good in crowds sometimes I think she just plain hates me but I mean who could blame her. "Lily stop bitching and get out of my car, why don't you try and make some friends I mean come on your 26 your not 15 stop whining" "I can whine if I want to last time I checked you aren't my mother" "Well last time I checked you weren't a whiny brat" "Rachel I hate you" "Noooo you don't you love me" as she awkwardly wiggled her dirty blonde eyebrows "Now get the fuck out of my car or I'll make you" we both laughed and got out of her dirty grey 2011 Toyota Camry.
As soon as we stepped out of the car I knew Rachel would run off and hangout with her petty suburban friends I mean I don't despise them for that matter I hate them because they think they're better but in all factuality no one is better we are all nothing floating around in a black empty hole sometimes I would like to think that there is so much more in life that everything has a meaning but I can't gravitate myself towards that train of thinking all our life's mean nothing in the end so what's the point? to leave bruises and scars all over this planet we just hurt everything in the end so I just try to avoid everything so I make less of a scar I'm sorry I'm rambling on I do that allot but some things are worth rambling on about.
