Jupiter

Civil War

Love. Hate. Friendship. Fraud. Loyalty. Betrayal. This is what its like in a day in my fucked up Life.  

I lost one of my closest friends  Samuel. He said

 "I don't think we should talk anymore"

"What Why?!"

"You are always involved in these scandals and you're nothing but drama." 

"What the hell dude... seriously."

"You Brought this upon yourself I'm tired of getting involved in your drama.  I'm always dragged into this."

"So you think I chose for my stuff to be leaked?! I made one mistake. You're supposed to be there for me."

"Get over it I'm tired of you always complaining. You need to get over all of this."

"HOW THE FUCK DO YOU EXPECT ME TO?"

"I don't know but I'm TIRED OF YOU!" 

"FINE!"

~A Few Days Later~

I saw Samuel hanging out with Jason and Luther. My heart broke. So he chose them over me. WOW. I can't believe it. My BEST Friend betrayed me. The guy who grew up with me. 

"Get over it."

I can. Its not my fault. I understand where he is coming from but the fact that he is all buddy buddy with Jason and Luther still but he feels "dragged into it" Bullshit he just doesn't think it would be cool to be friends with someone like me. IF he was honest with me maybe I wouldn't be that mad but he wasn't and it felt like it was out of no where for me. He was one of the few people I thought I had. I have no one.Do you Know how painful it is to walk into school everyday and people talk about me constantly I'm a hoe or a slut they would say. when In fact I have not done anything wrong. I'm tired of constantly crying myself to sleep everyday because I feel like Nobody cares for me. Nobody will ever listen to me but they listen to the rumors and the lies about me. So excuse me if I feel a little upset for being betrayed by one of my closest friends who chose the people who ruined my life over me. Every time I look at them I want to burst out into tears, but instead I put a smile on and fake through it. It's not easy being me my anxiety has gotten so bad and I nobody cares I'm clinically depressed and I feel like at any moment I'm going to break. I'm already falling apart piece by piece and if one more thing happens I am going to shatter like a delicate vase. I'm not strong and I am not brave like I pretend to be. Sometimes I just want to die and end it all but I can't but I have to be there for my family. It's not like anybody would really care if I was gone. My parents and I are constantly arguing and everybody freaking hates me here. Nobody knows what kind of pain I suffer through every second of the day. People just say get over it. Its HARD. I have no one. At the end of the day the only person that has my back is me. I learned that the hard way. Sadly

I bet you are wondering where it all started. 

And No I did not cheat on the love of my life Andrew, At least I have my best friend Celeste still.

It all started with a phone call 

and then 

"Jupiter Steel please report to the principles office immediately."

Lets just say that day ended in a hell of a lot of tears.