I'm constantly thinking and it's always of you,
Why can't I get you out of my brain?
This is complete torture,
I can't help but to wonder if these feelings that I feel for you will all be in vain one day,
Are my feelings for you one-sided?
Do you feel for me the way I feel for you?
I promised myself I wouldn't let my heart be broken again but here I am falling of you and you're probably not going to catch me and this damaged heart of mine.
My thoughts are chaos in my mind all because of you,
Why am I falling for you?
Falling for you is toxic for my mind and my heart,
Yet I still give you the loaded gun to send your bullet of hatred and mind games through my precious jewel that is called a heart and expect you not to pull the trigger,
My heart still hasn't learnt its lesson,
I find that strange because I've had to tape my shattered heart back together a million times and it still longs to love.
My heart lies to me to cover up all your story changes and lies,
This only makes it hurt more when you tell me that you don't want me and my lonely little heart.
You tear through my heart as if it were a scrap sheet of notebook paper,
You "don't notice my pain" but its as clear as day that you're slowing killing me.
My heart and I will never be the same after falling for you.
This is why it's called a crush because it puts your heart in a blender and hits puree.
My heart and I suffer this excruciatingly painful death in silence because you said you loved me but you didn't mean it.
I believed you when you told me you loved me because I thought you were different from the others but you are much more worse,
You got my hopes up,
You led me on,
You lied about everything,
You enjoyed watching me die slowly on the inside,
You found joy in my pain,
You loved the taste of my tears,
You exiled my dreams,
You made me toss away all my goals,
You drained me emotionally,
You made me play the fool,
You never cared about me,
You only ever cared about yourself,
You stole my heart and let it shatter in your hands,
You said you were there for me but you left,
You let me die.
