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Jungkook's pov

Here I am, in Deimos University. I am not in the mood to go to school after the scene yesterday but my mommy kept begging me to stand up to my bed and go here.

I love my mom.

It's recess time. I found myself here in the library. I really like this place. I like some quiet place at the same time I like to read books. 

Jungkook, we need to talk later. ~Kelvin

The two of us only? ~Jungkook

No. With the hyungs. ~Kelvin

Oh okay. Uhm, why? ~Jungkook

Just go to the rooftop after morning classes. ~Kelvin

Okay. ~Jungkook

And with that, he left. I felt consious and confused with a mix of nervousness. I was wondering about what are we going to talk about  later and also Kelvin's tone when we had a conversation wasn't the happy and glee one, intead it was a deep serious tone. I think it has something to connect with our topic later. Thinking about it makes me more nervous so I shrugged it.

Riiing...riiing...riiing...

The bell rang signaling that break time was finished. I gather my things and went to my class. I sat to my proper seat and not so long, our subject teacher has arrived. Our subject now is Math.

Class, get a piece of paper and solve this 50 equations for 1 hour. ~Ms. Dy

She said and write the equations. Teachers always have surprises. I get my paper and start working.

Afternoon classes was done...

I packed my things and went to the rooftop. There I saw the hyungs with...angry expression?! Jin hyung was at the edge of the rooftop facing the view breathing hardly. Then there was Namjoon hyung holding some pebbles throwing at the floor angrily. Next was the used to be calm at any situation Yoongi hyung was now leaning against the wall. His eyes filled with angry and scary expression, while Kelvin was staring at the floor angrily like he wanted to break the floor. Jimin hyung was trying to calm them by going to there sides patting there back and bringing them water.

I cleared my throat and shockingly I get there attention. When Yoongi hyung noticed me he was about to attack me with punches but Jimin hyung grabbed him in time. I think I know the reason why they were all in bad mood state. I think they knew that I was gay.

I'm sorry. ~Jungkook

I spoke up.

SORRY. YOU ARE SAYING SORRY. WHAT THE F***. JUNGKOOK YOU ARE GAY. ~Yoongi

He shouted at me. Tears were forming into my eyes but I let them stay in there. Then there was Namjoon hyung who shouted at me also.

JUNGKOOK, WE ARE FAMOUS IN THE WHOLE DU. OUR REPUTATION WILL BE WRECK BECAUSE OF YOU. ~Namjoon

Jeon, as the eldest in our group, we have to throw you and you have to leave the group. I am not sorry. I mean it. We can't welcome you if you are a gay. ~Jin

I widened my eyes at what Jin hyung said.

No. No. No. You can't do that. Because I am gay then you have to throw me? I can recieved your punches without punching back. I can listen to you shouting at me without shouting back. But I can't leave the group. Yes I am gay, can't you accept me? ~Jungkook

I explain to them. I burts out in tears. As a caring hyung, Jimin was about to soothe me but J-hope hyung stopped him.

Jimin, don't touch him. He is disgusting. ~J-Hope

But-- ~Jimin

No complaining Jimin. If you want to be with that gay then you also have to leave. ~J-Hope

I'm sorry Jungkook. ~Jimin

You are disgusting as f**? Jeon. ~Yoongi

I chuckled and smiked at them weakly. I clutched my left chest and spoke weakly.

I guess you don't really like gays. Well, this is my goodbye to you, and this is our last conversation since I know you wont be talking to me anymore. I will accept your harsh words since I know I deserved them. I will let you bully me everyday until I can see your happy face. At least I can make you happy even if I will be hurt. Thank you for the years of treating me like your younger brother. Thank you for the moments. Thank you for making me happy. But I will just let you know I will love you forever and treat you like my hyungs even if you see me like a trash. Uhm, goodbye. ~Jungkook

I get down and went to the parking lot. I drove way home. My heart is still hurting. I parked my car into the garage and enter my house.

I saw my mom cooking dinner with the maids. She noticed me. She walked towards me and made me look at her.

Baby, why are you crying? ~Mom

Then she turned her gazed on my right hand clutching my left chest.

Mommy, my heart. It hurts. ~Jungkook

Why? Did someone hurt you. Did someone make you cry? Did someone shouted at you? Tell mommy, baby. ~Mom

Mommy, I am gay. ~Jungkook

I know. And I accepted you with all of my heart. ~Mom

I didn't know why did I said that but I was surprised at mommy's answer. I didn't expect her to accept me. I expect her to shout at me as well. I thought no one would treat me as a human, but I was wrong. There was my mom. The one who loves me, who truly loves me.

I rested my head on his shoulder and cry. I hugged her tightly and she hugged me back.

Stop crying baby. It will worsen your condition. ~Mom

I just thought that no one woud ever liked me and loved me, but there was you who support me and love me on what ever I do. I love you mommy. ~Jungkook

I love you too son. ~Mom

Come one. Let us eat dinner. I cooked your favorite. ~Mom

She says not breaking the hug. I just nodded.

After this, we will watched a movie with your ate's (maids) while eating your favorite snack. Okay? ~Mom

(Ate = Older sister)

She added. I nodded again.

After all there's this one women who will love me always. Again I whisper to her.

I love you mommy. ~ Jungkook



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