I Love You Too | KTH JJK

18

Jimin's pov

After our confession about Taehyung's death, Jungkook first didn't believe on us. He even laugh at us knowing we were only messing with him. But after we explain on how and why Taehyung decided to volunteer, he sat in silence. We decided to left the room and give him space.

We are now in the canteen of the hospital, waiting for the food the we ordered. No one dared to speak after we left. Everyone's in missery about Taehyung's death.

The 23 years old kind-hearted man who loves kids and wants happiness to rule the world, doesn't deserve to die, but if it is for his lover, he will do anything even if it means to give his life.

If only I can turn back time, I could have find other people who is willing to give his heart for others, even I can and would give mine. Jungkook deserves to live long and healthy, that is why Taehyung gave it to him. But if Jungkook's happinness was gone while he breath, he rather die than to live with a broken heart.

Just by thinking of the what had happened makes my head hurts. How can we face and fight this problem if on of our sunshine ball was...I don't want to continue anymore.

I sighed and placed my head on the table with my arms being my pillow. I felt a hand rubbed my back in circles.

It's going to be okay Jimin. ~Yoongi

I looked up and saw Yoongi hyung smiling weakly at me.

I'm so tired hyung. I want to give up. ~Jimin

His smile turns into a frown. He shooked his head and sighed.

Don't. Be strong for Jungkook and for Taehyung. ~Yoongi

I knew he was tired as well and the hyungs, but they still manage to smile and hide all the pain. They remain strong; they hide their tears and not burst infront of Jungkook. I should be like them also. Fighting!

I look at where Jin hyung and Namjoon hyung went. I saw they were struggling holding those 6 paper box with food inside. I excuse myself and decided to help them.

Yoongi's pov

Jiminie went to the others with his head hunged low and his both hands on his jeans pocket. I saw how he dragged his self there with tired legs and how he sighed multiple times.

Among of us, he's the most affected one. He is the closest friend of Taehyung and his first crush was Jungkook. If I am on his shoes; losing my bestfriend and seeing how my first crush disappear, I don't think I can manage to deal with those.

I moved my attention to Hoseok who sat across me. His head on the table with his both hands ontop of it, palms pressed to each other. I can tell he is silently crying by looking at his body rising and falling.

I stood up.from my seat and sat beside him. I may be savage or looks like tired and grumpy always but I still care for people surrounding me.

You can't keep your pain on your self only. It may cause depression or suicide. You do know you can lean on me~Yoongi

He looked up at me with red and puffed eyes before throwing his head on my shoulder. We stayed like that for good minutes while I rubbed his back in circles.

Not so long, the others came back with foods on their hands. We decided to eat our meal at the canteen and give Jungkook's food later.

Jungkook's pov

Taehyung was dead... because of me. Why? Of all the people surrounding me, why him? I need him. I want him. But where is he? Gone. Dead. Not breathing anymore. Why? Because of me.

If only I was born without this stupid hole in my heart, Taehyung would be here. Smiling at everything he sees amusing and amazing.

He said life is precious, we shouldn't kill animals and even insects. If he said that, then why did he waste his precious life on me? I know he love me and he will do anything for me but he can show how much he admire me in another way, not like this.

I cried and cried out loud not caring if the patient in the room beside mine gets annoyed and disturbed because of my cries. I reached for the things that were near to me and threw them of across the room aiming the wall to create loud sounds. I hugged my knees and called for Taehyung's name repeatedly even if I know no 'Taehyung' would open my door and comfort me.

I couldn't hold and endure the pain inside me even if I am already crying and throwing things. It just hurts too much that I can feel the thread on my left chest is starting to burst open. It hurts too much that I can feel mg heart as if it was ripping apart into two pieces.

TAEHYUNGIE, PLEASE COME BACK TO ME. ~Jungkook