Just wanted to say one thing before I leave this stupid fuckin site
I swear, I'm a patient person.
A empathetic person, but lately ever since I realized that You saw me as dumb and dramatic my empathy is dripping down the drain quickly. I may have said terrible things but you broke my trust first, you see. My trust is a shot glass and you tipped it over. I only trust two people now, I don't wanna talk to most friends now.
I wanna isolate myself. Keep myself from ever getting hurt. Most of my friends are just here cause they like what I draw, or want to diagnose themselves with my seriously mentally ill considition, to be honest I haven't shut myself off like this for awhile.
Awhile I mean when I was drinking.
And yeah I called you a attention whore, a bitch, but you hurt someone I love dearly, how could I not see that as a threat.
And I'll be honest, I did care if I didn't it wouldn't be affecting me now. I know you said I didnt care, I know you called me a hopeless case.
But you never used empathy to save me.
You we're the one that didn't care, but I guess you were just jealous. Jealous of my considition and suffering. I guess your just way to prideful.
I'm just hurt cause you striked first and you set me in fight mode.
You say you feel threatened well excuse you, I wouldn't have attacked if I didn't feel threatened first.
Yes I did awful shit, but Atleast I had a reason besides replacing friends, atleast I'm not apathetic.
Yes I attacked random friend but they were fucking narcissistic.
If you ever see this I hope you fuckin ignore it cause I'm ignoring you. I expect the same boundaries.
You shouldn't have tipped over my shot glass,
You shouldn't have ruined my patience
Cause now I can barely trust anyone and I thought I was recovering from my trust issues but you made them alot worse.
I DO apologize to AL and Laf, I just want to never see them. I don't want to talk to anyone anymore. Sometimes I just want to cut off everyone, you broke that in me.. you fuckin broke my trust with everyone cause I got close to you
I got close to you laf and I am sorry I said these things, But I don't want to hear you or see you, I don't wanna talk to you, I don't wanna see anyone anymore.
I'm fuckin paranoid with everyone, I was when the fight started and instantly assumed that AL was against me cause she was talking to you.
So yeah I'm sorry as a human being.
But I will never,
Trust anyone on here again.
Bye
