This is a message form Skype I sent to someone (jdp)
(THIS IS NO WAY DIRECTED AT jdp OR ISA)
I'm tired,
Exhausted of being nice, tired of putting up with stupid issues an drama.
"Oh boowho I cut myself 17 times"
"Many is a shitty friend"
"Many said I was narcissist cri"
You know what? Sure I am. And it's true AL is a narcissist. You both aren't, your personalitys aren't, your whispers aren't so don't think it's directed towards any of you.
I'm just TIRED I'm done trying to save people who never cared or gave a shit, you and grace are a special expectation in every case but everyone else I do not give a fuck if I drive them to suicide cause to be honest caring and trying to save everyone almost drove me to that point, and guess what? I got nothing in return.
Laf says she was scared that I threatened myself twice with alochol, and she never got over or forgave me for that so why should I forgive her about the fight me and her had while I vented about my relationship issues? You don't like romance okay fine, you could of told me you were uncomfortable and I would've took my issues somewhere else
The fact is alot of people on here, people I thought were my friends I see as simple edgy teens trying to get a kick out of being miserable. And I know I was one of them at one point, but I'm starting to learn better then crying over a fucking vacuum cleaner, cause to be honest I'm not dumb and I can get better despite what everyone has told me.
My therapist said it would get worse but I'm feeling fucking thrilled, cause my considition lacks restraint or empathy when I'm at this point. And tbh laf broke all my trust or patience, so I'm done. My kindness has been abused and bent to much, and I honestly don't give a single fuck if I make someone miserable for the rest of their lives because they deserve it.
I just want you two to know that I'M NOT going to be apathetic like they were, and I'm not going to cut off either of you cause your the only things that matter to me anymore and you both were alot closer then they ever were.
So yes, I might be really mean to others and I hope you two can forgive me, cause I have only small regrets, like "I wish I never met apple or laf" and "I wish I was meaner then and then maybe my kindness wouldn't have been taken advantage of"
Cause I'm tired, exhausted of dealing with people like that.
And I want you all to know even the whispers and personalitys your nothing like them and that I love you all and I'm keeping you close forever. And if either of you need reassurance please ask, I'll gladly give you it.
