Help Me Out

It Was All A Lie..

Chapter Five

ALL HUMAN

"Bella," his voice pierced through my dreams. "Wake up."

My eyes fluttered open to Edward standing at the foot of the bed. His hair was a mess; all of it pushed up in one direction. He smiled at me.

"What time is it?" I said groggily, rubbing my eyes.

"Seven. Get ready and I'll take you to work," he smiled at me. "I'm going to make us some breakfast."

I stood up and scratched my head. I didn't have any clothes to change into. I couldn't show up in what I had on yesterday..

I walked out into the kitchen. He was standing, his back to me.

"Uhm...Edward?" I said quietly. He turned around and smiled at me.

"Yes?"

I looked down. "I don't have anything to change into.."

He looked me up and down. "Hm. You're right. The best I can do is give you one of my shirts and you can wear it over those jeans."

I smiled. "Okay. Thanks."

He grabbed my hand and led me into his bedroom. He rummaged through his dresser, occasionally looking over at me. Finally, he pulled out a light blue, button up, collared shirt. He walked over and held it up against me.

"This looks really cute on you, Bella," he looked at me. "it brings out your eyes."

Blue had always been my favorite color.

I took the shirt in my hands and walked off into the bathroom. I washed and blow dried my hair. I put the shirt on and looked in the mirror.

I didn't see why Jake thought I was ugly. I mean, I never thought I was the most beautiful person in the world, but I thought I looked okay right now. Edward was right; the blue did bring out my eyes.

I walked out into the living room and found Edward sitting at the table. He looked up at me and stared. I tucked my hair behind my ear.

"You look.." he looked me up and down. "really cute."

I blushed the reddest I've probably ever blushed. "Thanks, Edward."

He stared into my eyes. "Come. Sit down. Eat."

I sat down in front of him and slowly ate my food, kind of self conscious of eating in front of people. Jacob started me on that.

Edward seemed to notice. "Bella? Are you okay?

"I have self esteem problems. Eating in front of people is hard for me. I don't want to do something wrong or anything," I didn't meet his eyes.

"You know I'd never judge you, Bella," he said quietly. I didn't look up.

"Bella?"

I didn't know why I wouldn't answer him. I just...didn't want him to see my flaws. I felt like he was tettering on the edge. He could fall head over heels with me, or push me out onto the street because of how disgusted he was with me. I wasn't perfect. No. Not close. And he needed someone stable. Someone who didn't make mistakes.

Someone not like me.

Tears filled my eyes and I held my head in my hands. I heard him get up and come behind me, wrapping his arms tightly around me.

"Isabella," he said my full name slowly and softly. "Please. I'd never, ever judge you. You are you. And I love the real you. Please."

"I'm trying to be perfect, Edward. For him. For the world," I sobbed. "and for you. I'm trying to be perfect for you."