A Niall Horan fanfic

Chapter Four

I ran, I just ran as fast as my little legs would take me. I just couldn’t bring myself to stop; if I stopped then I’d have to face reality. I knew that running would be a coward’s way out, but I couldn’t think of anything else to do, other than run. The wind smashed my face as I fought back any tears that were threatening to fall from my eyes. I was running with no destination in mind, running from all my fears, running away from anything I’d ever loved and needed.  I didn’t know what else to do, this was the only thing my body would enable me to do, run.

In the far distance I could see a storm brewing, I sighed and slowed down when I realised I would most likely get caught up in the storm, but then again why did I care. I had nothing to live for anymore.

I stopped, tears fell from my eyes uncontrollably, I was a state. I was a state when the girl of my dreams needed me the most. I should be with her right now, holding her in my arms instead I’m being selfish and running away only thinking of my own needs.  I loved her smile, I longed to see it so bad, but I couldn’t go back, as much as I’d try and force myself to, I just psychically couldn’t do.

In front of me was a small lake, it was quiet and peaceful, with only the sounds of birds tweeting filling me ears with joy. It was just then that I felt my phone vibrate in my pocket.

“Hey, I don’t know where you’ve got to or anything, but I really hope you’re ok.

Niall, I really need you right now. I’m all alone, all by myself. I don’t know what to do.

Just after you ran, or left, whatever you’ve gone and done, the doctor came in, told me some really bad news, I don’t know what to do with myself Niall. I’ve lost my legs forever; I’ve been paralysed for the rest of my life. Is life worth living anymore? Should I just give up the fight now? I might as well stop everyone else hurting because of me. All I do is cause pain, and I am so sorry for any pain I have ever caused you, I will put a stop to this. I’m sorry, so sorry. Maybe losing both my legs is karma for me for some reason that currently I do not know of.

I don’t blame you for running away; if I saw somebody in my state I would possibly do the same. And now I’m just rambling on, but I guess the main purpose of this text is that you know I always loved you. And I never stopped, I still do.

And if you find one day that I’m gone, it could even be tomorrow, don’t be sad..not that I’m guessing you would be seeing as you’re not here right now. But I just guess there’s no point anymore, no point in fighting a losing battle.

All the good times we had, I will cherish them deep into my heart, and I hope you will do the same. All the times I chased you to the swings at the park, you’d always win; I guess we can’t do that anymore with the loss of my legs and everything.

So I’m sorry for everything, and sorry for rambling on a bit, but I guess this is goodbye.

Thanks for everything, I will always remember you.

Hayley x”

I froze to the spot, I couldn’t breathe. I didn’t know what to do anymore. It felt like my whole heart had been ripped to shreds and stamped upon. My breathing got faster and heavier, my body started shaking, I threw my head back until it hit the ground and I was falling unconscious.

*Katie’s POV*

I looked up at time, 3:59 it read. I sighed as this one last minute felt like forever until I finished my shift at 4 pm. I grabbed the last piece of paperwork I had to do for the day, signed my name at the bottom and went to go grab my coat.

As I walked out of the building I catch sight of my boyfriend Zayn’s car in the distance of the car park. I skip over to the car grinning at his cute little sleeping face – he must of drifted off to sleep whilst waiting for me, bless. I tap the window of the passenger’s seat with my long manicured fingernails. Zayn’s eyes slowly flickered open before catching sight of me and unlocking the doors so I could jump in.

“hey beautiful” zayn whispered with his seductive tired voice. It turned me on so bad. I leant over and let my lips crash into his before he pulled back and let a smile form upon his usually poker face.

He started up the engine and set off whilst I pulled the seatbelt over the top of me. “I’m taking you out tonight babe, I’d ask if that’s ok with you but you don’t have a choice either way” he finally spoke with a smirk across his face. I just couldn’t resist him at all, not ever, and even though I’d already organised to go out with my friend Olivia and her boyfriend Harry, I had to turn them down as I didn’t want to upset zayn. Zayn never really liked Olivia, he said that there was something about her he really disliked, i could never understand what he meant though, she was beautiful, and so easy to talk to.

We got out of the car and headed up to Zayn’s apartment, me and Olivia shared our own flat but these days I’d made zayns apartment my second home just so I could spend more time with him. I walked through the door and what I saw amazed me, all spread out over the floor were little baby pink love hearts with “I love you” sprawled across them, as I made my way into Zayns room I caught sight of all the rose petals he had thrown all over the bed, and the candles placed carefully around the room and on the window. It looked so romantic.

Zayn walked through the door, dressed in a suit, he looked beautiful as ever.