A Niall Horan fanfic

Chapter Six

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*back to present time*

*hayleys POV*

I snapped out of my thoughts from all those years ago, and took a quick glance at Niall. He’d grown up so much, he no longer had that cute little baby face. His short blonde curlyish hair had been styled and straightened to sit perfectly upon his grown up face. The way he was sat down, all curled up in a ball made me smile. It reminded me of what I did at the first sign of danger, shield myself from the world so no bad could get in and ruin or break me. Sometimes even Niall felt like my safety barrier.

I studied his face for several seconds before shaking my head trying to escape my current thoughts circling round in my head.

I sighed to myself, I didn’t know whether I should say something to break the silence or not. It wasn’t an awkward silence, we both just sat there thinking, thinking about the past and how we can forget everything. Was there a way?

“I’ve always loved you, you know?” I gasped at what I’d just said, I’d always kept that thought to myself, in my own head, promised myself I’d never let that secret out. He’d probably run a mile again now at what I’d just said. I put my head down and just waited, waited for the sound of the door to slam that way I’d know he’d gone, run off scared again. That sound never came however, I lifted my head up ever so slightly just for me to see, though it wasn’t high enough for him to see me looking up, I could see him smiling, he had a cheeky little grin upon his face as his eyes scanned the room.

His once curled up body is now sprawled out across the floor happily, and he catches my eye and signals for me to go over and sit with him. I oblige.

“Me too beautiful, me too” he pulls me under his arm as I snuggle into his chest. I know this is wrong after everything, but for once in my life I just want to feel loved and needed. The sweet scent of him makes me snuggle into his chest further and he rests his head on top of mine, I can feel his jaw move ever so slightly which then I just assume that he’s smiling to himself. I’m smiling to myself too, I just can’t help it. I couldn’t help but think this was how to was all supposed to turn out, me and Niall, together.

“Well?” his irish accent makes me shudder, it was deep and just sends shivers over my body. I looked up directly into his eyes, they were pleading with me to forgive him for everything and go back to the best friends we were before everything happened.

“Well what?” I laughed, this was perfect.

“Everything’s going to be alright. You know that babe?” i smiled back at him reassuringly; I hoped everything would be alright from now on.

I was so happy right now, everything in the past was just shoved to the back of my mind, I didn’t want to think about it, any of it.

I pulled his hand towards mine and intertwined them together, this wasn’t right but then again it was.

“I’m sorry” I looked at him and gave him a smile as I said this. I meant it, I am sorry. None of this was entirely his fault.

“It’s ok” he gave me a sympathetic smile, the way he looked at me was like he wanted to forget everything and start again. So did I, but something was stopping me from forgetting and every time I looked at him it just reminded me over and over again.

I couldn’t help it; I wanted to pull myself away and turn back time, it was impossible though. I had to live with the pain every single day, I didn’t know if I could deal with that internal pain every single day.

Niall had noticed me worrying and he placed a soft kiss on my forehead before asking “what’s wrong??” I wanted to tell him, to tell him I was scared, but I couldn’t it would break him. He thought everything was back to normal now, truth is it wasn’t, it was an act.

I had so many questions I still needed to ask him, I don’t think he’d be able to answer them though. I don’t even know if I’d be able to get them out of my head.

“Hayley” I jumped away from my thoughts and looked up at Niall, the way his mouth was ever so slightly open showed that he wasn’t finished with what he was saying; he just wanted my attention to be diverted away from the thoughts running around in my head.

“I do love you.” His voice went quiet as he told me he loved me. “And I’m sorry for everything, I’ve been an idiot and for that I’m sorr-“my lips crashed into his before he could finish. I didn’t want to here anymore; I’d decided I wanted him more than anything. I didn’t want this kiss to end, I wanted to be here forever, sat in his arms where nobody could reach us. The adrenaline literally rushed through my body as fast as it could, until finally Niall pulled away grinning away to himself whilst cradling me into his arms.

A door in the distance bangs shut as my heart stops. Is the person back? I hear loud footsteps getting nearer and nearer with every step they take, I throw my head back in a panic and crawl behind Niall using him as some kind of shield.

He didn’t seem afraid like I was; maybe this was a trap to catch me. I didn’t know what to do, as I tried to stop myself from hysterically crying. I was scared.

I stood up ready to run, run away. I could do it, I knew I could. I had to fight back from everything; I couldn’t let anyone rule me anymore. I glanced at Niall as the door opened, he looked confused as ever, and he didn’t understand what I’d been put through since the days he left me. I couldn’t just tell him either, it was a traumatic time.

The door edged open a bit more, and a foot stepped into the room.