Why can't you remember me?

Hey guys!!!!! Ok so this is my first fanfic....yep so so so nervous. I hope you guys enjoy. If you guys find anything wrong please tell me any thoughts or comments. About the story and if it might go some where. Yep yep yep I think that's about it. Hug guys enjoy.

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Chapter 1

Cameron pov.

"Cameron.....cam... You there?"

I wasn't even processing the voice that was coming through the phone, my mind was stuck on one sentance. Nash is in a comma. How had this happened he was just here. I finally told him I loved him, I finally got to kiss those soft, pink lips that had seduced me when I first laid my eyes on him. But now he was gone, but not quite. Knowing this was almost harder than finding out he was dead. He was there but I couldn't hear his deep chuckle, I couldn't see his smile, or those piercing blue eyes that I get lost in so easily.

"Cameron! Man answer me, are you ok?"

Shawn's voice snapped me out of my thoughts and I looked down at the phone. Noticing that the screen was wet from the tears that had slid down my cheek, and off my chin. I nodded forgetting the fact that Shawn wasn't with me.

"Y-yeah I'm coming over now." I choked out hanging up and stumbling to the door, tears blurring my vision making it even harder to see. I got into my car and drove to the hospital. I could barely stand to stop at the stop lights. It seemed to take an eternity, and when the light turned green I floored the gas petal. I pulled into the driveway few minutes later and ran to the lobby. There was a woman at the desk typing away on keyboard. I didn't even bother being polite.

"Nash grier, what's the room?" I panted out trying to catch my breath. I had momentarily made the tears stop.

"Sir you can't see him now. It's family only." She said snottily at me.

I didn't have time to put up with this bitch of a secretary. I needed Nash now, how'd the boys get in they're not family? Then again they probably stormed up, not even bothering to check in. I grabbed her computer from her.

"H-hey what are you doing?" She yelled.

But I was to busy typing in his name. There was a ding and my eyes scanned the screen till I saw his the room number and floor. I took off and ran up the stairs taking them two at a time. I turned and slid skidding on the clean white tiles as I tried to get traction. I ran down the hall, adrenaline filling my veins, fearing that it might be to late to see him, that he would slip away before I got there. I skidded toms stop and threw the door open trying to catch my breath. I looked around the room, and the first person I saw was Hayes his face was tear stained, and grief stricken. His shirt was on backwards and inside out, hair messed up, bags under his eyes. He saw me and almost burst into tears. My heart broke seeing the younger boy like this. It's all my fault he's like this,......Nash I mean. If I hadn't told him,........if I hadn't kissed him than maybe he wouldn't have gone home. Maybe he wouldn't have gotten hit by that car.

I looked past Hayes and saw Nash's prone body, weirs were hooked up to him, and he was pale, he looked almost ashen. I sunk to my knees still looking at him, then I crawled over to the bed where he laid. I took his hand and put my forehead to it.

"I'm sorry....I'm so so so sorry Nash....it should've been me....." I whispered then something in me snapped and I started sobbing, shaking uncontrollably to the point I was gasping for air.

"IT SHOULD'VE BEEN ME! IM SORRY NASH, IM SO SO SO SORRY I DID THIS TO YOU, I CAN 'T LIVE WITHOUT YOU NASH! YOUR MY BEST FRIEND I CANT DO THIS WITHOUT YOU. HOW WILL I TELL THE FANS, YOUR FAMILY, MAGCON. THAT YOUR DEAD? " I yelled getting louder and louder, each sob racking my whole entire body.

I was squeezing Nash's hand tightly, my tears soaking the edged of the blanket. I felt arms around me and I heard Hayes sobbing into my shirt holding onto me as I rocked back and fourth. I cried with him. I cried until I had no fluids left in my body, till my noes hurt, and I was losing my voice from crying sorry and saying Nash's name so much. I hugged Hayes in one arm and kept holding onto Nash's hand with the other.

"I'm so sorry Hayes........it should've been me....." I whispered into the younger boy's ear.

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Phew that was nerve wracking.... Hope you all enjoyed that. I'm sorry it was short!!!!!! Leave anything in the comments. Hugs bye guys!!!!!