Michiko Yuki

My fear

Right now it's the holidays in Australia so I apologise if I haven't been updating enough it's just because my family from Victoria came to visit us in Queensland so I wasn't able to update throughout that time. I hope you enjoy this chapter >:D. Please vote and comment, BYE!~

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I woke up and saw Hikaru kun and Kaoru kun sitting next to me on the side of my bed. They were staring down at me with- I couldn't tell whether it was sorrow or happiness, it was mixed emotions in their eyes that I find so captivating. I sat up and looked at them with concern, they looked away with a small pink colour visible on their cheeks. I wonder what's wrong.

"Nani?" I asked with concern and curious it's flowing through me. Their expressions suddenly changed and the pink that was once visible on their cheeks was gone.

They looked at me with bright smiles "let's go to a carnival!" They exclaimed cheerfully. I froze, I hate carnivals, that place has the fear that I did not forget. The mere word frightens me. "There's one in town so we thought that it would help you get your mind off of all the things that's been happening" Hikaru kun pointed out with the same smile plastered on his face. Finally noticing my usual white body seemed to have somehow gotten paler they looked at me with concern.

"What's wrong?" Kaoru kun asked me worriedly. "Don't you like carnivals?" He asked curiously, I smiled and shook my head.

"Not at all it was just a surprising idea is all, I'm fine Hikaru kun, Kaoru kun" I replied smiling my best fake smile, hoping they wouldn't notice the fear in my eyes.

"I'm glad you're alright. Ne, Yuki chan can we call you Yuki and you call us Hikaru and Kaoru?" Kaoru asked with a smile of relief. "There's clothes in the cupboard over there and shoes" he pointed to a door across for my bed. ''Just come out once you're done changing" he added. I walked over to the cupboard and opened the well polished wooden door, in the cupboard was what looked like thousands of dresses, t shirts, pants, stockings and shoes. I walked in and closed the door behind me.

"Hai" I replied smiling. I love their smiles, when they look happy it's like all my troubles fade away and disappear into thin air. That is until I am alone and when I am alone, they all come back then I am left to worry and fear everything. For me there is no such thing as never ending happiness so if you do have such a wonderful thing, make sure you treasure it and never forget how lucky you are.

I walked over to where the t shirts were and looked around there, I spotted a black t shirt with laced sleeves I grabbed it then hung it over my arm. I then walked over to the lower body section and grabbed a pair of light blue denim shorts, I got changed and walked out and sat on my bed in between the twins.

For a strange reason I always feel safe and secure when I'm near them and only them, I can even tell them apart. They were already in casual clothes so we went outside and I saw shocked to see a practically sparkling limousine. "D-don't you this is a bit much" I said astonished. I've never been in a limousine before, I'm curious as to what it looks like.

"Nah we always go around in a limousine now come on" Hikaru said and they both grabbed my small hands and we walked to the limousine and I sat in between them.

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It was a long ride there and Hikaru fell asleep on my lap and Kaoru fell asleep on my shoulder, my face had heated up to a bright red colour. "A-Ano..... Hikaru.....Kaoru? We're here" I said softly. They stirred but didn't wake up. "Wake up" I whispered as I gently shook their shoulders.

"Just a little longer" Hikaru groaned and laid his hand in front of his face and rested it on my leg. I got a tick mark on my head.

"Hikaru, Kaoru you need to get up" I said with a slight agitation in my voice. They slowly and lazily opened their eyes and got up. They looked at me while rubbing their eyes, I rolled mine and got out of the black, shining limousine. "Hurry up you lazy twins" I demanded. I covered my mouth. Kso! I got too used to talking freely around them that I even insulted them, i bowed my head when they got out of the limo. "Sumimasen!" I said with sincerity.

They looked at me confused, I know they heard me. "You don't have to apologise Yuki, we prefer it if you say stuff like that sometimes because it shows that you feel comfortable around us" Kaoru said with truth in his voice.

I raised my head and turned around only to see my fear. It was standing there smiling and laughing dementedly. My eyes widened in fear, my hands shaking, my knees trembling and my eyes developing tears. It was a clown. They are the one fear that I remember although I wish I could forget. Despite my shaking legs I ran behind Hikaru and Kaoru then clung to them.

They turned around and looked at me worriedly. "What's wrong Yuki!?" They asked me. I couldn't respond, my voice was long gone and replaced with shaky words.

"Cl-Cl.......I-I-I'm...." Those were the only sounds I could make into words apart form the sobbing in between. They seemed to understand what I was trying to say and turned around to the smiling psycho path.

"Sorry she seems to be afraid of clowns" they informed and he walked away. My knees gave in and I found myself on my knees still trembling in fear. Images were going through my head, pictures of a knife dripping blood with a red glove holding it. This glove belonged to a man disguised as a clown for my birthday party when I was younger. I had deep, bleeding cuts all over my legs and arms. I was running on the streets until I knew I wasn't being chased anymore.

I was 'safe'.