Michiko Yuki

Hikaru san likes me!?

Yuki's P.O.V

Hikaru san kissed me.....he kissed me......WHY DID HE KISS ME!?! I don't understand why.....why would he kiss ME!?!! I'm so confused and embarrassed. I was in my room sitting on my bed with my knees at my chest.

'Why did he kiss me!?' I kept replaying that question in my mind 'that was my first kiss'

I don't understand. The image of us kissing popped up in my mind. My face went red and I pulled my knees even closer to my chest.

I heard a knock. "Sweetie it's dinner time~" my father sung.

"H-hai" my voice was quieter than usual. He must of noticed.

"Sweetie is everything alright?" He asked with a worried voice. He probably thought I was getting bullied again.

They only thing I could say was "hai" I couldn't manage any other word.

"Okay, if you say so" he walked away after saying that. I got off my bed and went to the dining/lounge room. We live in an apartment so we only have a few rooms. We have a table in the lounge room we sit there for both eating dinner and watching something on our small T.V. I went to the dinner table and sat down. Here in Japan we don't have chairs our tables are on the floor like a stool. The obvious difference is that the table is wider.

"What's for dinner?" I asked as I sat across from my father. He smiled and clapped his hands.

"We're having pasta bake!" He said it so happily I don't understand how he can be so joyous about everything. I am envious. We started eating in silence. No words. Nothing but the sound of us eating our pasta. This must have been the cheapest thing in the store. I didn't eat much, there was too much on my mind.

"Aren't you eating anymore sweetie?" He's gone from being happy to being concerned. I sighed.

"No" I know it's obvious something's wrong. I'm aware of it but I'm not going to tell anyone. I'm not going to. I refuse to show further weakness. I stood up "I'm going to my room" I walked away and shit the door on my way out. I decided to call Hikaru san and ask him why he kissed me.

I got put my phone but stopped when I realised that I didn't have his number. I slid down my wall slowly. Tears overflowing in my eyes. Is he trying to manipulate me? Is he trying to drive me into a corner mentally? I covered my ears. I don't understand.

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It's morning. I'm getting ready for school even though I really don't want to.

"Are you ready yet?" My father said from the other side of the door.

"Hai" I still sounded down. Well more than usual at least. I always sound down because of my soft voice. I walked put and left. I forgot to say goodbye to my father I had also forgotten my lunch. Crap.

"Yuki chan~" it was Hikaru san. My face went red and I turned my head and walked the other way.

Hikaru's P.O.V

I called out to Yuki chan but she just turned her head and walked away. It must have been because I kissed her. I felt my face heat up. Don't think about that baka! I need to tell her how I feel. I should and need to. She's probably really annoyed. Sighs. This isn't good.

"Yuki chan~ I need to talk to you!" I shouted. Kaoru gave me a confused look but I ignored. This time she turned her head and walked over to us.

"What is it Hikaru san?" Maan I still blush when she says my name. I can't help it she's beautiful, cute and kind.

"Oh this looks like it's private sooo I'll be going" Kaoru smirked and walked away. We were alone. Everyone else were at classes. Kaoru's probably going to wait at he door for me. I took in a long deep breath.

"Yuki chan I think i like you" I said it really really quickly to make it hard to understand but I'm pretty sure she knew anyway cause her face went bright red.

"H-H-Hikaru san w-wha-what are y-you s-saying?" Wow. I really took her by surprise. She could barely even say a whole sentence without stuttering. "I don't understand these feelings" she clenched her fists. I haven't seen her in a state like this before. It makes me feel so much sympathy.

"Gomme Yuki chan" I said it slower this time. "I didn't mean to make you confused" she looked up at me and did the thing I didn't ever expect from her. She grabbed my tie and kissed me. It was a quick kiss but it was enough to make my whole body go crazy with a tingling sensation. I wanted to kiss her but she spoke.

"I've never understood what this feeling is" she looked down and said it with a shaky voice. My eyes softened. I feel sorry for her. Does she even know that, this particular feeling is possibly love?

"Yuki chan. That feeling might be love" I said softly. She looked up at me with a confused look.

"Love?" She tilted her head. She looked like a puppy dog. My eyes widened. Hasn't she heard of love!?!!!

"Haven't you heard of love?" I asked trying to keep my astonished look hidden. She doesn't know what LOVE is!!!?!! Woah, that's really strange. It's like every day I learn more but also less about Yuki chan.

"No" she sounded so ashamed. Like I said I really feel sympathy. First this girl was bullied and now she doesn't even know what love is! I mean really what a shitty life. "My father doesn't say it and I've never heard any one else say it before so.....no.......I don't know what such a word means" she must think it's just some random word that's not really important to know.

I wonder how that feels. My thoughts were once again interrupted. "Hikaru san can you tell me what love is?" She looked at me with such a sad face I couldn't deny. I don't think anyone could.

I smiled "well you can't be taught what love is.....love is a feeling" I was trying to lighten the mood by smiling but I failed.

"Love is.....a feeling? Like pain?" Is that the only feeling she could come up with -.-". Well fair enough she seems like she's been through a lot of pain. But I never thought that she wouldn't know what love is.

"I'm back~" Kaoru's obviously back. "Are you two done?" He asked with a smirk.

She looked down again "hai" she walked away, she didn't even turn around. Did I do something or is this just because I kissed her? I feel like there's something else going on that I don't know about. Damn it!

Yuki's P.O.V

My head began hurting. I saw flashes of images in my mind. What's happening to me? I held the sides of my head with my hands. What are all theses images? They're of me and my father but I don't remember ever experiencing any of these events. What the hell is going on?