Just emotions

I miss you

Truth is I miss you
I miss you a lot
In every face I search for you
Searching for your soul, your touch, the way you hugged me from behind, and those tippy toe kisses
I am aware that I am just another "ex"
But you were everything to me
I gave you everything
My body, heart, and soul
And that wasn't enough for you
You've ruined every relationship for me I get so scared because they might just leave if they see the real me
They'll leave me like you did when I needed you the most
I kissed your scars and to mine you turned the other way
I tried and tried and tried for you
But it's still never enough
So, since then all my lovers
Are only lovers of my body
Touching me with their lustful hands
And anyone who ever actually sparks my interest is too good for me
So all I'm good for is people who claim to be something then end up being the opposite
Like you
You said you weren't like everyone else
You said you wouldn't hurt me
You said you'd always be there
You said I made you the happiest guy on the planet
But you replaced me in a heartbeat as if I was absolutely nothing to you
You said you loved me but then you left me
You left me with thoughts
You left me to let my own insecurities eat me alive
My flesh and bones
Till there's not a single part of me left
Is that really love?