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Toxic Thoughts-Faith Marie

  I start this off staring at a blank pageAn open office documentA blinking cursor passing daysWithout a single wordSome say it's absurdLike I float along a stream of words unsaidChoosing not to cast my netBut I spend so long questioning myselfIf this isn't rightThen does that mean I failed?Will my melodies ever live upWill my metaphors be profound enoughWill I ever outdo myselfThe ceiling gets higher and higherIt's harder and harder to shatterAnd when I fallI fall worse than I ever did beforeEvaluating the damage no I just don't understand itConflicted my the very air I breatheA love with hatred laced between  You can see it in my eyesA child's spark light up the nightConstant search for approval, suffocated by refusalDevouring my skull but never feeling fullOh, dear I don't wanna be a burdenBut could you please be a little more concerned withThe overactive mind of a believerThe toxic thoughts of an overachieverOh, dear if only you could feel itThe crippling fear of being desertedYou can't touch the heat of this feverThe toxic thoughts of an overachieverI start this off a little confusedWriters block doesn't existIt's not a word I'm supposed to useBecause it's all in my mindA parasite I'm supposed to findBut sometimesWell most timesIt's so hard to defineSo I pour a couple drinksGetting drunk on gasolineFire pulses in my veinsI'm sick of waiting for the dayThat courage overtakes my brainFor someone to say it's okayI've lived my whole life afraidIt's time for me to be braveTo embrace a forestThat's so dark and unknownBecause no great adventurer has a paved path to roamThey pave as they goDisappointed faces leaving poisoned bread crumb tracesI'm not taking the baitLet them rot in their placeI deserve to be alrightI deserve to sleep at nightI'm my closest friend, I remind myself againBetter treat her well, 'cause she's with me till the endOh, dear I don't wanna be a burdenBut could you please be a little more concerned withThe overactive mind of a believerThe toxic thoughts of an overachieverOh, dear if only you could feel itThe crippling fear of being desertedYou can't touch the heat of this feverThe toxic thoughts of an overachieverSometimes I forget the feelingOf every single nerve tinglingBetter than any lovers touchI've created tears of pain and burns of lustI've created a forest a safe place for myselfThat others have foundSome attempt to destroy and others feed the groundFertilize my mind with melodies and rhymesA sorcerer of time, take you back to the nightWhen you pondered your death when somebody leftWhen you lie away broken 'cause your head is unkeptAnd let me remind youThat everything is temporaryYou and I are temporaryAnd this feeling that's so scarySomeday you'll realize that thoughts so heavyDon't mean you're unsteadyBut that you're only getting ready to say nice to meet youTo somebody you never knewYou