Yellow Heart | DT

four

POV - Jess

He was so mad at me all the time and I didn't knew why.

I remember he screaming at me terrible names, the worst was, I got used to it.

I should have asked for help, but I was too scared to do it.

In the beginning it was great, he was the most beautiful human I ever saw, inside and out, but after some months I couldn't look at his eyes because I saw no soul on them.

I don't know why I kept dating him, maybe cause I was genuinely afraid of what he could do to me if I wanted to break up.

He was always trying to have sex with me, even tho I told him many times I didn't was ready for it. I always ended up with my face on the floor.

All the bruises over my body, all the scars he left on me, no one ever saw.
Tyler and I didn't looked at each other, my parents were always fighting. I was the weirdo of the family, no one cared about me.

The last time was the worst, it was when I knew it was the last.

It was the best day of my life because I knew it was the end of the suffering, I felt free but also the worst because I felt completely alone, empty and until that day, that's how I feel.

I still remember all.....

I arrive there, my house was in the same street as his, the door was a bit opened so I didn't bother to ask for permission to go inside the house.

I hear loud moans, I couldn't believe it.

I remember that I thought to myself that maybe was better leave and pretend I weren't there because it was going to be so much worse if I stayed.
I turned my back when I heard what changed completely my decision.

- Fuck Piper. - Piper. My best friend's name.

I didn't believed it myself.

I opened the door ready to bit the shit out of him for hurting my girl.

But it was worst than that.

- Jess is not that it seems - She said covering her body with a sheet.

- What it is then?

- I'm so sorry - She said. My face dropped.

- Fuck you both!

- What did you said to me? - Aiden grabbed my wrist and punch me in the face multiple times untill I fell to the floor.

- Aiden stop wtf! - I heard Piper saying.
I could already feel the blood dripping from my nose when I got punched one more time in the head before losing my senses.

I woke up in the hospital with my parents and Piper by the side of my bed.

- Get the fuck out of here. - i told her.

- I'm so sorry. - I ignore her. I didn't wanted to hear her ever again.

For all these months, Tyler and my parents never knew what happened, I just told them I got in a huge fight and they believed me.

I stopped myself from keep remembering all this, I couldn't stop shaking and crying and I had the
biggest headache ever.

My bedroom floor was so cold but I waited until I could breathe properly,
what took me what seemed to be years.

I get up and went to the kitchen to drink some water, I felt so weak.
I clean the tears from my face even tho I just wanted to keep crying, my forehead was hot but the rest of my body was cold as if my body was dead. I already had stopped shaking but stil had a huge amount of pain in my chest.

I heard the door opened and soon saw Tyler and Sarah entered the house.

- Are you okay? - Tyler hugged me making me feel uncomfortable because of the pain I felt inside.

- Yes. - I said holding the cry.

- I was so worried, why did you leaved school without telling me? - Tyler semead to not know what to do.

- I´m not feeling well. - I ignored his question.

- You better sit down . - Sarah helped me sitting in the edge of the couch, I kept my hand in my chest as if I was having an heart attack.

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[later]

I knew I just had the biggest anxiety attack of my life.

I looked at my phone screen. 4am. At this point I already gave up on sleeping even tho I'd have to go to school next morning.

It was tuesday already, the day Tyler go home earlier than me.

I'm not going to lie to myself as I lie to Tyler, I knew I was fucked up if he saw me but I wouldn't miss school and look like a little bitch.

After a couple hours of thinking about the same thing over and over again, I decided I'm definetly going so I can stand up for myself, I have too. “I'm not the same girl, I'm stronger”
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[Tuesday morning]

- Get up lazy! - Tyler opened the blinds making the sun hit my face.

I was not waking up, actually, I was pretending to be. If Tyler knew I didn't fell asleep he would know that something was going on and I didn't wanted to worry him.

- Hm stop. Close it!

- You're late Jess… - He sits on the edge of my bed. - Are you feeling better? You look bad. - I fake laughed.

- Yes i am, thank you for the compliment.

- You're welcome sis. - he said while leaving the room.

I checked my phone “7:34am, I have less than half a hour”.

I got up feeling my body weak and went to the bathroom. While looking myself in the mirror, I felt like a ghost. Actually, I looked like one. I was pale and had huge dark circles under my eyes. "I'm surprised that I fell asleep last night."

I took ten minutes to dress myself with the first clothes I saw in my wardrobe and put some foundation and concealer under my eyes. I put mascara as I do everyday and went downstairs to drink some coffee.

- Let's go?

- Let me brush my teeth. - I said running to the bathroom. After I do it I checked myself in the mirror again, I didn't looked too bad as before.- Okay let's go.
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First person I saw while entering the school door? Aiden.

- I forgot to tell you but Aiden is here. - Tyler said worried. - Are you okay with that? He's a friend of the twins.

- I didn't expect him to be here. - I lied about seeing him yesterday. - But I'm okay with that.

- You sure? - He stopped walking and put himself in front of me. - You looked scared Jess.

- I'm just nervous because I don't see him in months.

- He cheated on you, he don't deserve you. Show him you're better.

Aiden was talking to the twins, I was ready to show how better I am without him. I need to show him
I'm not afraid anyone.
After so many months, I needed to do this for myself.

'They didn't saw me and Tyler yet." I took a deep breathe, I closed my hand so I could control my nerves.

- Where's the man! - Grayson said to Tyler making Ethan and Aiden stop talking and looking at us.

- Hello guys. - I said.
For a second I felt the most confident girl in the world, but then Aiden looked at me with a dirty smirk and I could hear my heart. “Breathe Jessica”

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I'm way too excited to post the next chapters. I hope you have enjoyed! ♡
With love,
- your girl Alex