Nightmares (Alex Gaskarth X Reader)

Chapter 2~ "Don't Shit On People's Lawns Ya Creep"

Your POV

Present Day/ 10 months together

"Good morning y/n." Alex smiled and lightly kissed me. "Good morning Lex." I smiled "can I tell you something?" He asked "of course you can." I said "well...I've been thinking about it a lot, and I wanna take you to Baltimore, I want to take you to see all the places that I spent a lot of time at, and just places where I found peace when it felt like I couldn't...consider it the umm...the Alex tour." He smiled "that sounds like a lot of fun." I smiled "so what do you say? It'll be a long drive...but think about it, it will be a fun experience together." He said "you don't need to convince me, I wanna go to Baltimore." I said "okay then, when do you wanna go?" He asked "whenever you want." I said "okay how about we pack tonight and leave early in the morning tomorrow?" He asked "sounds good." I said and went to go pack, the trip was sudden, but wherever and whenever I was with Alex, everything was fine. I trust him with my life more than I trust myself with my life. I guess I've never been able to trust myself, maybe because I've never really trusted anyone, in fact if it wasn't for a special person I met, I wouldn't even be here...I never saw her again, but she saved me.

-Flashback-
I sighed as I slumped down by my locker, I never had any friends, no one loved me, mom left, dad was a drunk abusive fuck, and no place felt like home. I quietly hummed the tune to my favorite song, it helped me get through the day, it inspired me, but it wasn't working today. I got home from school to find dad passed out on the couch. I took the opportunity to slip into his room, open the closet, and quietly pull out his gun, he taught me how to use it back when he wasn't like that, just in case of an emergency. I walked far away, into a secluded area, into the place where I could disappear, nothing mattered anymore and nothing was stopping me. It met my head, and if she hadn't been there...I for sure wouldn't be here. I was about to pull the trigger but then...I heard a twig snap, it scared me and I dropped the gun "what are you doing?" She asked "n-nothing." I sighed "please don't." She said. I glanced back and looked at the red haired girl, I didn't know her...but she cared, it was probably just a figment of my imagination "do you need a place to stay for the night?" She asked "s-sure." I stuttered. We stayed up for a long time, getting to know each other, eating pizza, and watching a movie. It was great, but after I left in the morning, I never saw her again after that, but I won't forget the day.

-End Of Flashback-

That's the first person I trusted, and although I never saw her again, I won't forget red haired Cassidy. Alex would be the second...I still haven't told him about that though, but maybe I should soon...after all we've been together for ten months already. I sighed as the thought crossed my mind again...the thought that I was gonna take my own life when there were so many opportunities. I didn't realize, but Alex had been looking into my eyes the whole time, and I guess I was kinda tearing up, or maybe I was zoning out. "Y/n?" He asked softly "yeah?" I asked "you okay?" He sighed "couldn't be better Lex." I smiled and nuzzled my head on his shoulder. "Are you sure? I can tell when you're lying y/n." He sighed  "but I'm telling the truth...Gaskarth." I smirked in his face "y/n...don't call me Gaskarth, something about someone calling me Gaskarth...it...you know what I mean." He smiled "My. God. Alex." I laughed "because I can't say adult stuff around my innocent girlfriend." He laughed "I yell fuck all the time though." I smiled "like the time you called me a fucker...I have feelings too." He fake cried. "Nuu don't cry." I laughed. I've honestly never been happier, he shared the same amount of weirdness as I did, what is there to not love about him, and he does things like this...spring random trips to Baltimore, he was always there when I needed him, and he was real, if something didn't look right, he said it, and it never hurt. "I'm so sad now how dare you." He continued to fake cry "nooOo stop crying baby." I laughed "and stop shitting in people's yards the fuck." I laughed "hey hey hey I am NOT shitting in people's yards." He laughed. "Okay, maybe I did once, but only because their dog kept shitting in MY yard." He said and I just started dying of laughter.

Alex's POV

I feel the best I ever have ever since I met her...we're extremely weird but who cares? I swear. This is the girl I'm going to marry. I never thought love existed for such a long time...especially after what happened with my girlfriend before her, but the thought of what she did doesn't cross my mind anymore. I really hope I can take her on tour though, I think the fans would enjoy seeing her too, but there are some crazy ones who get mad because I'm not with them, it's pretty scary to be honest...anything can happen, I hope they don't do anything to her, because I'm not scared to go in there and personally beat their ass. I pack fast...mostly because I packed for a tour a few hours before we left that was two months long so yeah...we were both done packing by around twelve, so we went to bed right after that. It was only four hours of sleep, but I usually run on two, and y/n can sleep in the car. "Y/n y/n y/n, it's time to wake up." I quietly sang in her ear "not right now LexyBear." She groaned wrapping her arm around my face "yes right now." I sighed "we're going to Baltimore, remember?" I said "Baltimore can wait." She groaned lightly hitting my face with a pillow. "Bish wake the fuck up." I said jokingly (she could tell I was joking) "noooOooooO." She groaned "m'kay then..." I smiled. I quietly got up, crawled over to where she was, and in one quick motion I launched myself onto her like a cat, I wrapped my legs around her and started tickling her "noOoOooO." She groaned and rolled over throwing me off of her. "Baltimore can wait then." I smiled and tangled my hands in her hair. "Okay." She smiled and rolled over on top of me. "Hey y/n." I said "yeah?" She answered "h-have you ever thought about the future?" I asked "no...actually I haven't...I'm more or less well stuck in the past." She sighed "a lot of stuff happened then." She said "I have...iVe just thought about our future together." I said. I wrapped my arms around her. I can't believe I was living this dream. I lightly brushed my lips against hers, god I love her. I held her until we both fell asleep and woke back up around eight. "You wanna go now?" I smiled. "Yes LexyBear." She smiled. "Okay." I sighed... I must be really great at hiding things, because she still hasn't caught onto my sweating, or heavy breathing. I was trying to remove the image from my head of what happened in that nightmare. "Let's go then." I said "Okay Lex." She said flashing me her beautiful smile. I put everything in the back of the car, and we took off. For the first hour, we rolled down the windows and screamed our favorite songs, we could see the people judging us through their windows but who cares. She knocked out within the next two hours so it felt like I was alone in there...which only brought the thought of that terrible nightmare. I had turned off the radio so she could sleep peacefully, but the silence and buzz of the road was driving me insane, in the next few minutes I felt like I was choking...I tried calling y/n but all that came out was a hoarse whisper, so I resulted in the only thing I knew would wake her up. I hit her arm, and she jumped up "Are you okay?" She asked. I was finally able to breath again, and I let out a huge gasp "y-yeah." I panted "then why did you hit me?" She asked "I j-just needed you to wake up." I answered "why?" She asked "I just wanted to ask if we need to pull over...you know for snacks or something." I said I'm so bad at lying "I don't think we do." She said "Kay." I said.

Your POV

He's hiding something, I know it, but questioning it isn't gonna get him to tell me. I leaned against the arm rest, and he rested his hand on my head. "Y/n?" He said "yeah Lex?" I asked "d-do you really want to know what just happened?" He asked "yeah, of course I do, I wanna see if I can help in any way." I answered "you can't really help me with this, but I'll tell you." He sighed "okay then, what is it?" I asked "it happened a lot a while back, but they went away for a bit, just now they're starting to come back, and it's driving me crazy...I just have terrible nightmares about so many things...releasing an album that no one likes and everyone hates us, my friends suddenly disappearing never to be seen again, everyone hating me because they think I did something, everyone turning against me, dying, but worst of all, you're just a figment of my imagination helping me cope and you aren't real and my whole life is a bad dream and when I wake up you and everyone else isn't gonna be here." He sighed. If I could right now I would knock him out with a hug, but that's not so great of an idea because he's driving "everything you're dreaming of isn't real Lex, I'm here, I'm not just in your imagination as a coping method, you guys won't drop a bad record, your friends aren't gonna mysteriously disappear and not be seen again, no one is gonna hate you, no one is gonna turn against you, and you aren't gonna die." I said "I know...it just scares me, because I don't know reality." He sighed "sometimes you need to let go of fears." I said "I guess you're right, you just have to get used to it, it's like going on stage, you never now has gonna happen, but it goes on anyways." He said "exactly." I smiled. "Anyways how much longer?" I asked "uhh sixteen or seventeen more hours." He answered. "Okay." I sighed and went back to sleep, making sure I was closer to Alex so he doesn't freak out again.