Living as Hollie Edwards.

Living as Perrie Edwards

I stared out the window, thinking about how she walked into my life. I've always hated her.

***earlier today***

I spent most of the week trying to hang out with Zayn, I know I'm being too clingy but, he's going on tour NEXT week!

"Zayn, wanna go up to Newcastle?" I asked him.

"Babe, I'm really tired, I mean you can go yourself but I'm really tired." Zayn answered.

"Okay." I got up from the couch, as Prada and Hatchi were meowing and barking for me to stay.

"Zayn, get them something to eat for goodness sake!" I told him as I slammed the door.

I drove to Essex to see Jesy's godfamily, they're way nicer than her real family.

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"Rosie?" I yelled out her name as I ran to hug her.

"Pezzie! I missed you!" Rose replied.

"Hey Rosa," Jesy asked,"how's life treating you?"

"Life treats me fine, Jes!" Rose answered.

Rose is adopted, but I'm her mother. Daisy & Michael, Rose's adoptive parents, are the only ones who knows about it.

"Imma go talk to Issy, she needs some love too!" Jesy told us. Issy (Isabel) is Rose's youngest sister.

"Bye! Rosie, how's life?" I asked her.

"Mum's almost dying and I might have to live in Somerset, her dying wish is for me to find out who my mother and father is." Rose answered and butterflies errupted in my stomach. I didn't want Rose to get mad at me for not raising her, I was only 16!

I got a text from an unknown number.

Unknown: Hello Perrie, remember me?

Me: Do I know u?

Unknown: (Ame)Lia Charlotte Edwards.

Me: You little bitch.

Unknown: Guess your little secret is known, told Hollie abt Rosalind& Ivalond .

Me: You were in Newcastle or S.S? WTF!

Unknown: Newcastle, also told her abt me bein her aunt. Oh and btw, you're gonna b gettin a niece or neph

Me: We'll talk later, with Rosie rght now

Rose had a worried look on her face.

"Is everything alright, Perrie?" She asked with her beaming blue eyes looked directly in my eyes.

"Everything is okay, Rosie." I answered her question, trying to look happy for Rose.

"Well, can I talk to you? It's about a boy."

"Okay, well, what's he like?" I asked, hoping Rose doesn't make the same mistake I made 4&6 years ago.

"He's a good guy, he's a nerd, very posh-"

"You wanna date a posh guy? How are you going to put up with his ass?" I replied.

"Perrie! He has a wild side too! I wouldn't date a bland, boring bloke." Rose told me.

I'm being a good mother ish, I haven't seen Hollie and Ivy in forever. Rose and I bond so that must be good.

"Pezz? Hello?" I snapped back into reality,"you were in your thoughts."

"Oh, sorry," I apologised,"I hope he treats you right and doesn't knock you up."

"I'm not gonna let him access my card, Mum said that my actual mother got knocked up at 14 and 16 and had an abusive boyfriend, I don't wanna end up like my mother." Rose explained and I got a bit teary-eyed, I wonder what she thinks of me.

"Yeah, she's seems pretty bad." I lied, I was good, I had a great career and I was the perfect wife.

"C'mon Perrie we've gotta go!" Jesy yelled and I ran outside.

"Bye Perrie." Rose said.

"Bye Rosie and Issy!" I yelled as I got into the car.

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My car was at Jesy's flat in London, I put the key in the engine and turned it and drove. I started thinking about Hollie and the last time I saw her. She didn't even come to my wedding. And that's when it all hit me.

I started taking the route to Newcastle and it was a long drive.

*****

I was finally in Newcastle, happy to see 2/3 of my daughters.  I drove to my Newcastle flat and as soon as I got there, I turned the knob and the door was open. Somebody broke in.

"Hello? Is anyone here?" I started to feel like I was in a horror movie.

"Right here." I heard the Geordie and Irish accent combined.

"Lia? Why are you here?" I asked while we were in the dark.

Lia flicked the lights on and walked over to me, "So that Hollie and Ivy know the full secret on their mother."

"This was always your plan, to ruin my life! That's why Mum and Da put you in that mental hospital." I started yelling.

"I simply want them to know the truth, also I'm having a baby." Those last four words struck me.

"A what? To who?" I asked her.

"A baby and to Daniel, your former lover." Lia answered.

"You little manipulative bitch!" I ran over to her and started choking her because of the way Daniel treated her. He gave her birds, he gave me bruises,  he gave her a ring, he gave me rape.

"Don't get jealous, you have the best of the best. Zayn Malik ring a bell?"

"I loved him first! And I still do. You have the audacity to break into my flat and start shit?" I screamed, knowing my voice was about to crack.

"What about your Mix-"

"Leave, Lia, go to South Shields or Gateshead, I dont care."

"What about your band-"

"I want you to leave, Amelia." Lia left and I went upstairs and into my room, grabbed and changed into my pyjamas. I started thinking about how she walked into my life after I tried so hard to keep her out. I always hated her, she got the most recognition.